College life- A new phase of life

By Akansha Goel, 26th May 2012 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/2pbihml5/
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This article is just a diary writing which reveals my ups and downs through the journey of first year of college life.

College life- A new phase of life

College life’s first year:
12th boards over and now after a long battle of colleges finally chose a destination for me and it was the time to step into a new life commonly known as “The College Life” or “a phase of life with full on entertainment at every phase”.
Imagine those 240 moments of laughter, joys, madness, excitement, sorrows, hopes, dilemma that surfaced right from 20th august 2011 when this girl loaded with excitement, anxiousness made her mark .. Words simply don’t define the kind of feelings my current state of mind has. In fact, for the first time I find myself in a dilemma from where to start. Many will find this post written in not a definite manner and that’s because thoughts are coming on a more informal way into my head.

The lord has indeed been kind enough to be to provide me a company of so many lovable people, people who can actually control me in times of sadness. Whatever happens, happens for good. I believe maybe it was in my best interests rather to be sitting in a class of students each having coming from diverse backgrounds ( we even have students coming from north-eastern states , Nepal and Bengal ). I strongly believe that I atleast won’t get the same kind of friends anywhere.. Friends whom I call them brothers and sisters.

I still clearly remember, it was the first day ( 22nd august ) and i entered into a classroom that was as huge as an audi of some opera house . The chairs we set up-side down and the sweepers were sweeping the floors . 2 guys were standing up there , And they were my ( and are ) first friends at college ,HITUL GUPTA and KANIKA SAHU . Both i must say are great human beings you can have to give you a company.

Talking about Hitul…
You go to him anytime and he wont send you back unhappy. Very caring and thoughtful guy. Doesn’t indulges in too much of nonsense, doesn’t shows his attitude anytime and believe me , he not the kind of person who will stab at your back anytime . Very generous and kind . Infact i would suggest him to continue his attitude of accepting everyone the way they are ( and ideally you should too encourage him ).

And here comes the description of Kanika..
Considered to be our TOM-BOY, she is a girl who is free from all the stress in life and this makes her unique. She has a witty character inside which is naughty and knows how to make mickey outta everyone. She (like hitul) is very generous and kind hearted . She doesn’t takes pride in anything that she does or has achieved so far. She is a big follower of Eminem’s Music. Both are very generous human beings i have encountered.
This girl is a serious Eminem Fan. She has heard almost each and every song of Eminem. Very Crazy in her thoughts and actions, she can Suprise you any given day or time. she doesn’t loves if someone troubles her in his deep sleep. She does things differently each and every single day. Very Supportive in nature, Very clever, Brilliant student and a very Generous Human. You have a problem and she has a solution to it.
And along with kanika, mohini came into scene, kanu’s room mate in hostel. It was my first semester exams when I came to know and interact with her closely as that was the time I came to knew that she is not my senior instead a bird of my feathers only (I mean same age group :p). The one whose complete soul lies in her cell phone, is the only way I can describe her. And yes how can I forget her title of “Kanu’s Mother” and the most awesome one of “Momo’s” for our dear mohini. She is the sweetest of all in our group.
And our group is known as “The Gusiayas” means a group of angry mates who love each other a lot and other members of this group are Kushan Banerjee, Ruby Singh, Sumit Pramanik and Riya Adhikari.
Coming to the description of these great people…
Kushan another fellow who has always been my best buddies of all, I still don’t find time enough to have a chat with him but believe me he's an ideal fellow. Very quiet, Distinct and straight forward, he gets Sentimental at times but thats ok , wonderful creature. He loves someone secretly ( and a secret is a secret my friend ) and lets not go into that . He (like me too) doesn’t talk about love and breakups on facebook, but on a more practical note about life and music. He is a big follower of Heavy Metal Music. I remember that I met him after my first semester when all the friends went to “WOW” (which is “Worlds Of Wonder”, a water park with lots of adventurous rides) and it was the first time I came to know him & within a few days only we became very close friends as if we know each other from many years.
Then comes my sweet little (ironically speaking as she has a little small height) friend named Ruby Singh or as we call her “Rooby-Dooby” during our fun times. She is as sweet as sugar and chocolates, a very charming girl who does work by taking every of her teammate into consideration and respects everyone’s individuality. I have never seen such a sweet and lovely person in my life..
And finally we have our sweet couple, riya and sumit. They are not boyfriend and girlfriend instead they call themselves as wife and husband because for a individual its easy to play with many wives or husbands but not with boyfriend/girlfriend. Fighting and playing together at every point of time they both share each and everything with each other and are good friends of mine. They are the one with discrete opinions and help me everytime whenever I need their help.
Apart from these friends, some people came into my life who were not an integral part of my life but affected me in some way or the other. Some made me Cry, made me worth not even speaking anything.. Yes there have been experiences like these also. I felt like hating myself for making such poor choices even worse i felt like cutting myself totally. I cared for them so much , yet all they did was insulted me , Lied me , Said It's Ego that hurts a relationship ( ironically, They are the ones only who are starting it off), Spoke Unnecessary lies , False Notions and what not . I strongly believe a person shouldn’t be an object that can be USED & THROWN away. When you ask for a shoulder, they simply deny it to you. A friendship doesn’t deserves to be used this way.. Ideally it deserves to be thrown away .What's even worse is that they have to ask others just to talk to you (Cheap Nonsense And Bullshit ). We even have certain elements who would go and utter something to a person which wasn’t meant to be said and then it all it does it makes up a big time issue.
If it's hard for the people to choose between me and someone else..
I would allow them to choose other one because I am not an Option..
When people hurt me over and over again, I think of them like sandpaper. They may scratch me and hurt me a bit but in the end, I end up polished and they're useless and yet again, If you dislike me, remember: it's mind over matter. I don't mind and you don't matter! there's no point in remembering them if they can’t think a damn about you, If they say they hate to see your face because you just spoke a lie , They say they don’t trust you and you think inspite of every single thing you did for them if they say this , then maybe its better to leave them the way they are . Pretty simple thing or step.

But on the Top Side, I Still Apologies to that same person who feels i am wrong. Everyone makes Mistakes, i am no exception either. When you have to live under one roof for many days to come, you know its not easy either to ignore. Hatred won’t give you anything, rather it will give those 100 people to make develop 100 thoughts about you. I agree they have done more wrong (Morons they are ) and for each and every cheapness they did you would have ideally liked to kick them out .. But with me it’s different. I believe in reconciliation, A clap is made with both the hands so any argument can never occur without both the parties and i feel the best is to sort things out. Carrying them will only add to the woes. I wish someone makes me smile the way i make people smile and i am still looking for that person.

I guess that was too much Emotional ...
Apart from all these, some people except my gusiayas were still their who made me laugh many times and even I shared my hearty things to them. Two of them are Ankit harsh and Aditya Kishan.
Ankit Harsh, he is a great Film Critic, Actor and a director , At times he resort to overacting, but never mind that .. Keep up the work. You were, are and will be amongst my best buddies. He is the one who is very serious from heart but you will always find him as a joker as his only work is to laugh and make everyone laugh. According to him, if a person has not made a century in his/her life one time in the complete life then that person’s life is a waste. For him century means doing every thing which people hesitate to do in general life habits. He is the central character of our class.. :p

Aditya kishan is also among those people who help others silently and never boast about their work. Same as me, he also loves writing articles and try to earn money a lot. Great buddy of our ankit harsh and one of my best friend.
I don’t want this article to be boring and monotonous for people to read and so could not enlist other people’s details but for sure would love to write their names and few of them are dayita chakrawarty, aditya gupta, aman modi, anshul dhamija, ankita saxena, aastha rajput, kunal kushwaha, akhil mittal, anushree tyagi, himanshu singh, akanksha singh, Alisha arya, amit baisla etc.
This article is too short to mention all the names.

But at last I would love you all to read about the most interesting person (according to me) who changed the meanings of my life and he is Rahul Bhardwaj, my first crush. But unfortunately my luck didn’t took my side and I could not be his forever because he loved someone else. But ok… Life doesn’t stops. I love his company and for me his happiness matters a lot more than anything else. I always thought that I don’t need anyone in my life and I can control my emotions strongly but his presence made me realize that I am wrong. Something is missing in my life and that is love and concern. I know that its impossible to have him but still I will pray to god and will wait for him till the end…
With him I realized that first love is very difficult to forget…

As the time passed by my first year of college life has come to an end. On the last examination day I felt as if it was just a day ago when I stepped into a new phase of life’s journey and my college life started and suddenly one year has passed away in no time.
I know this will happen for next coming three years also and we wont be able to hold time but still I will always cherish these memories.
I hope to keep you all entertained in our next innings as well. Hope you all will help me too.

WE PART TO MEET AGAIN ! SEE YOU ALL ...