I Gave You My Love
By Carol Kinsman, 6th Feb 2012 | Follow this author
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This is for all of you who have lost a love in your life...
I Gave You My Love
I gave you my love
So free and so true
But you threw me away
Like an old worn out shoe
I thought that my love
Could help ease your pain
But little did I know
That it was all just in vain
I still love you dearly
But I know it’s no use
To hang on to the past
Will just bring more abuse
I pray for your healing
I truly do care
But the only one who can heal you
Is YOU
If you dare
The sweetest of memories
I hold in my heart
When it feels like all I have left
Is the dark
So wherever you wander
Wherever you roam
I send you my light
From my own quiet home
May peace be with you
Now and always
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6th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you, Mark, for you comforting comments. It means a lot to me..
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6th Feb 2012 (#)
It is so hard to see the ones we love, hold on to things in their past that have hurt them. Carol, I like you, have had to deal with life at a very young age. After I ran away at 13 years old (1 month before I turned 14), I have to admit I was bitter for a few years and then I knew for me to have a better life, I just had to deal with it all. I had to bring it up, close and personal, it was not easy but, it was a journey I am so glad I had taken. I am not saying at times throughout the years, I do not allow my past to affect me but, when it does, I just face it head on. You are so right, no one can change you, except for you. Contact me if you need a ear, I am here for you. Have a blessed day my friend. As always, thank you for sharing.:)
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Oh, dear Denise. So many times I have recognized myself in your writing. We are both very strong women. I know that I will get through this, it is just such a difficult time. Thank you for your words of encouragement. It means so much to me...
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6th Feb 2012 (#)
Carol we all feel like both you and Steve are our friends. We understand and share your pain. Leaving could not have been easy and your love for Steve is still clear to see.
I feel neither of you are trying to hurt the other - as is what happens in many relationships, but both want the other to be happy, and whole. We all wish both of you the best whatever road it takes.
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
What can I say Mark..... We both think of you as such a great friend here on Wikinut and facebook, too. :o) It feels so good to know that there are people here who really care about us. Much love to you, my friend.
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6th Feb 2012 (#)
Deep and tender feelings of ...beautiful poem- Carol sending you a hug - .. your grace and strength is inspiring as are your beautifully written words...
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you so much, Delicia... And great big hugs back to you. I couldn't sleep last night and got up at 4am to write this poem. It's the first poem I have ever written in my life. Grief has a way of doing that to you. Thank you for your love and support. It's what keeps me going right now...
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6th Feb 2012 (#)
I am fairly new here on Wikinut, but as Mark said It is clear the love y'all have for each other. it is always sad when these things happen, and it is never easy. Just keep your head held high and things will work out for the best. :)
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you so much, Stephanie. I do know that things will get better..
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6th Feb 2012 (#)
Oh, Carol - Carol. You made me weep with this heart-rending peom. I expect it was written about steve. I wish both of you some light at the end of the tunnel. Love ya, Carol. Hang in there.
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you, dear Sheila. Didn't mean to make you weep. I do hope that the light at the end of the tunnel comes very soon. Don't know how much my body can take. Thank you so much for your encouraging words. Love you too, my friend...
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6th Feb 2012 (#)
Wow, Carol. Such a wonderful poem. I love it! Please keep writing!
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you so much, Christine. This poem came from deep within my heart. I'm so glad it moved you...
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you so much for this, from yopur heart, and though I know how hollow sound my words, I am so, so sorry.
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
I know, Steve, I really do....
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Steve, dear friend, hear the words of Carol, please, for the sake of your children.
Psychological healing and marriage counselling will do wonders. Hoping for the best solutions. And Steve, be reminded it's only Carol who will take care of you, including John and Taylor, (let's be clear about this) in your coming old age (sorry to say that).
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Thanks for sharing this deep outpouring from your heart dear Carol--your family here on Wikinut feels the anguish of this situation -- and we sense the love you both have shared and still do...though it may express itself differently after this big shift...I have no doubt whatever you both choose will strengthen not only your abiding love for each other but for all beings--as pain is the best teacher of compassion--and often also proves the biggest prompter of poetry. Amazing that this is your first poem! It shows a keen sense of the music of words through a fluid flow-- both of phrasing and of sincere feelings. Poignant to see Steve's apology here...and it does not sound hollow to me---because he's been, as you must already know, pouring his heart on the page and sharing the process. I sense forgiveness is there on both sides...and time will ripen whatever is meant to be...
Love and healing hugs to you....
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Now that I've stopped crying, I can respond to this, my sweet friend. You are right.... pain is the best teacher of compassion. I'm learning this lesson in a very big way right now. Thank you for your love and your healing hugs. I really need them right now. I love you, my sweet, sweet friend...
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Dear friends Steve and Carol,
I wish you both Love and Joy.
I wish you both will meet at a point where the light of your hearts shine bright not leaving any room for darkness.
Because it's only the Light that dispels darkness, and let that Light prevail in your ailing hearts.
How beautifully Carol's poem carries the healing message of harmony and peace!
"I send you my light
From my own quiet home
May peace be with you
Now and always"
I understand that that 'quiet home' is there in both of your hearts, and that's where your souls roam forever cherishing the Love you shared in the Light but never in the darkness that's not permanent.
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Oh, dear Rath, your words mean so much to me. You are right.... The dark is not permanent. Love and light is what lives forever. Love you, my friend..
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Carol, I've read your message to me you sent the other day just now on FB. So sad! I thought there would be room for reconciliation between you and Steve.
Your separation came as a shock to me as we'd known you to be so sweet and loving to each other all this time, it couldn't ever be said of you couple to become star-crossed in the end!
Which doesn't mean I'm closing the door of the both of you having a happy ending, happily reconciled through forgiveness, as John and Taylor will be adversely affected had any healing not happened between you. And yet, in the end, I wish all the best for both of you, dearest friends!
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you so much, Buzz. The only hope that we might have is if Steve decides to do some intensive psychological work around these issues and then we do some marriage counseling. It is the only thing that might possibly salvage this mess. I'm hoping... Much love to you, my friend.
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8th Feb 2012 (#)
Sometimes the soul cries in the darkness Carol, and as I read this poem, that is what I hear within your poetic verse. My tears fall for you my dearest friend and my heart aches because no one can resolve this but you and Steve.. As you can see from the comments and support on this page, your situation touches us all deeply.. For a first poem my friend, it is truly your voice within speaking.. Perhaps through poetry your heart may heal in time...Loving you my friend..xxx
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8th Feb 2012 (#)
Hello dear Bev, I so appreciate all your support. We have much deep inner work to do if we are to heal our broken relationship and we both have the desire to make that happen. For now, we have decided that it is best if we live separately while we do our work. I am very hopeful for the future. Thank you so much for all the love you have shown me during this very trying time. Sending lots of love to you, my friend. xo
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8th Feb 2012 (#)
A quite beautiful poem of forgivness Carol. So sorry to learn of your sadness at this time. It will pass, I promise.
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8th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you so much, Lewis. Forgiveness is my ultimate goal, but first I must heal myself. Hugs to you, my friend.
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8th Feb 2012 (#)
Carol I share this with you amid all of the radiant warmth emanating from your sincere friends here on Wikinut. There was a young lady supposedly of ill repute (we weren't there to see for our selves) .She was about to be stoned to death, perhaps even deservedly so. A certain young man arrived and witnessed this bitter act. He knelt down and wrote in the dust: "Let he who has no sin, cast the first stone." One by one her accusers dropped their stones, turned around and walked away. When we look at one another's very real grievous shortcomings, through the veil of our own faults and imperfections, we can take a new road home. Blessed are you my dear friend, for your poem reveals that you are about to embark on this new and wonderful road. Andre'
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10th Feb 2012 (#)
It is true... We all have our faults and imperfections. Thank you for sharing that wonderful story. No one can know why we come in and sometimes have these very difficult experiences, but I do know that every one of them helps to make us stronger, more resilient and able to love more deeply. Thank you so much, dear friend, for your beautiful, heartfelt comment. :o)
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9th Feb 2012 (#)
Carol, beautifully done! I didn't realize (its the blonde moments) that you were also a writer here on Wikinut. I pray that maybe a little time apart will help both of you grow, seek out help options etc. And we are all here for you.
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10th Feb 2012 (#)
Hello Melissa... Yes, I do write on Wikinut, but I have taken an extended time off. I'm hoping to find more time to start writing again. Thank you so much for your words of support. It means more than you know...
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9th Feb 2012 (#)
Carol and Steve you are both in my thoughts and you are both my friends. I want everything to work out fine for you no matter what road you decide to travel on through life. Take care both and I wish you well for the future....
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10th Feb 2012 (#)
Hi Richard... Thank you for checking in and and your beautiful well wishes. We find ourselves traveling in uncharted territory (at least for us) right now, but I know we will get through. Whether we will be together or separate in the future.... I just don't know yet. All I can do is focus on keeping myself grounded and doing my own work. Thank you again..
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10th Feb 2012 (#)
I hope you both made the right decisions.....it's all in your hands whatever will be...good luck and God bless
i am jules...aka cowboynextdoor...i am a friend of sir Steve here in wikinut..
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10th Feb 2012 (#)
Pleased to meet you, cowboynextdoor! We all have challenges to meet in our lives and this is just one of them for us. Life would be boring if we never had anything to work on. :o) Thank you for your kind thoughts..
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11th Feb 2012 (#)
What can I say. In troubling times we feel all alone, despite comforting words all around. I have gone through such in my working life; being cast away without a thought. But time heals, and it has for me. I do forgive those who hurt me but just cannot forget, They keep replaying and revisit out of the blue! But we need to move on - try best to forgive, and forget too. Life is too short to waste on negativity. I share the hurt and pray for you both, dear Carol and Steve. Don't forget, we are a family - siva
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17th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you for your caring and compassionate words. I am overwhelmed by the love and support I have gotten from my Wikinut family. Peace be with you, my friend.
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15th Feb 2012 (#)
Dearest Carol, I miss your wise penned words and 6 articles on wikinut sound so very lonely dear friend. Has it not occurred to you yet, that writers are doing precisely that, "Writing", as it is the greatest road to self healing. Revisit your pages or any pages that deal with loss and grief and read the comments like Siva's above we all come from there and find sustenance inside those as yet unwritten operas of the mind.
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17th Feb 2012 (#)
Hello Andre, You are right.... writing is a great tool for self healing. Writing this poem was very soothing to my soul. I have been doing a lot of journal writing, but most of it is more personal than I would be willing to share here. I have some ideas, but I'm not quite there yet. Stay tuned.... Thank you so much for your never ending support, dear friend. xo
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19th Feb 2012 (#)
good one!
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21st Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you NancyG.. :)
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11th Mar 2012 (#)
I got this late and I am so sorry I did, even though I learnt u guys are back together now, right? I am happy to know this and I wish you two well.. I hope you become stronger and more intimate in your relationship. My Heart goes for both of you and you are considered family here. So I wish you great happiness, especially in in your marriage.
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12th Mar 2012 (#)
Hello Funom... We are not really back together, but we are trying to work out the issues that caused our break up. Thank you so much for your kind words.
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19th Mar 2012 (#)
Hello Carol, I just read your beautiful poem, so heartrending and written with such clarity. I really did not know of you and Steve until I read all the comments above. I can only send much Light, Love and Healing to you both. And always remember that we are never given anything we cannot handle. This planet is a classroom of learning and working out our karma...so everything that comes to each of us is a blessing in disguise, a way of our learning and growing.
with much loving, carolan
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23rd Mar 2012 (#)
Everything you say here is true, Carolan. This is a time of great growth for both of us. Much love to you, my friend.
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29th Apr 2012 (#)
light and loving to you Carol and peace be still....truly the blessings are...
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11th Apr 2012 (#)
What a beautifully written poem, from the heart. thank you for sharing this.
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11th May 2012 (#)
Thank you so much, cnwriter and jennyreeve...
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