I Threw Her Away
By Steve Kinsman, 3rd Feb 2012 | Follow this author
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I never knew what I had, so I threw her away, and she is free, of me.
I Threw Her Away
She was more than good to me
As good as she could be
But I could never see
What she meant to me
And how she could set me free.
Rose up a dark tide
My shadow side
Erupted far and wide
And she could no longer abide
To see me glide
Into utter darkness
Broken and hopeless
An abject mess
Who no one could bless.
Now she is gone
It hasn't been long
Now singing a fresh new song.
She's got her life back
After dumping this sad sack
It's no longer bleak and black
For she stepped through the crack
And now from me
She's set herself free
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3rd Feb 2012 (#)
Not really Steve! It's very well written and I find it sad but appealing at the same time. How could she go off and leave yiou.
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3rd Feb 2012 (#)
Because I have never felt I deserved her, and out of that self-loathing I pushed her away. She stood by for twenty-five years, but enough was enough.
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3rd Feb 2012 (#)
Powerful and poignant...full of regrets, beautiful, sad and haunting poem Steve....
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3rd Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you Delicia.
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3rd Feb 2012 (#)
Ah Steve my friend! We all have our dark sides. hope you are doing okay (hugs)
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3rd Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you Sheila. I'm hanging in there, but I don't have a clue as to how to even begin to heal.
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3rd Feb 2012 (#)
I'm sorry. Thank you Melissa.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Steve, take it one minute at a time....sorry my friend...
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you Delicia. I so appreciate that.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
I am with you!
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you so much savaswriter.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Steve my dear friend,
Your positive attitude is amazing, though it's sad to feel the parting away.
Great poem.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
I don't tjhink my attiotude is the best - in fact, it was my attitude which contributed to Carol's leaving me. Thanks for your suppoprt, Rathnashikamani, which I treasure.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Tragic poem Steve, when reading I was hoping it was "just a poem" not a pouring out of your soul. Sorry Steve.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Thanks for your support Mark. I value it.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Steve: I'm so very sorry. It has happened to me and I prayed and cried, prayed and cried, it seemed like forever; but it wasn't forever. Please stay close to us. I believe in the power of prayer more than ever now. You know you are not alone. Human beings are not infallible and there is One who is always close. I will pray with you, Steve.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you so much Ivyevelyn
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Hello Steve, some how this poem slipped by unnoticed. However, in the same light as Ivy Evelyn's second comment take strength in that nowledge that: "Where there is true remorse, there is unconditional forgiveness." G.B.Y. Andre'
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
A case of the sticky "K" sorry.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you Andre.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Steve, it's hard to believe the sweetest Wikinut couple, you and Carol, should part ways! I'm sorry this has happened, but I think you should take her back. It was not supposed to happen.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
It's not a question of my taking her back. Sjhe's done with me, and after my mistreatment of her all these years, it's no wonder. Thanks Buzz, for your heartfelt support.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Oh Steve--I had no idea you two split up. This is deeply sad and gut-honest raw....an extremely touching poem. Intense! especially these lines
An abject mess
Who no one could bless.
But you know, it is only the shadow side....not 'you' and that will leave you too...eventually...your true self is not dimmed, ever. And i am sure Carol knows the good part of you equally as well.
May you both heal....
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
God bless you rama devi.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
I left a message on your other page. Love yourself, Steve. You are a kind and caring friend.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you so much Ivyevelyn. Bless you.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Aw - how very sad. You tell your tale so well too. Super poetry.
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4th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you Sheila. God bless you.
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5th Feb 2012 (#)
Still thinking of both of you---and it seems all of wikinut is too--with all that good energy to bolster the process, there is even more hope for eventual resolution into the light for good! :)
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5th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank youi so much tama devi. Namaste.
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5th Feb 2012 (#)
Just think everything will pass by for good...
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5th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you ppruel. I rellay appreciate that.
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5th Feb 2012 (#)
My thoughts are with both of you, I truly hope you find a way to happiness.
you are two of the nicest people I have come across for a very long time.
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5th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you so very much or your valued support, johnnydod.
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5th Feb 2012 (#)
This is sad. Compatibility is hard to realize when we believe we are in love. When you cast someone away, they are their own agent as you are too.
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5th Feb 2012 (#)
I need tissues for this one.
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5th Feb 2012 (#)
I'm so sorry vernazoa. I'm very grateful for your support.
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5th Feb 2012 (#)
I'm here and still thinking about you, of course. Take care of yourself. Love, Ivyevelyn
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5th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you, Ivyevelyn. God bless you.
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6th Feb 2012 (#)
good luck and God bless....
-i wish it was for good
-jules here a.k.a cowboynextdoor
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6th Feb 2012 (#)
Thamnkl youi cowboynextdoor. I appreciate that.
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6th Feb 2012 (#)
Wow! What a poem. I like it so very much. You express yourself so well. Keep writing!
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10th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you Christine.
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
This is so sad. I didn't have to be this way, Steve. Still love you though..
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7th Feb 2012 (#)
And I still love you, and I am so sorry it has to be this way. XOXO.
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10th Feb 2012 (#)
aww such a sad poem sorry for you split. stay friends and love might find its way back to you both. you don't know whats round that corner
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10th Feb 2012 (#)
Thank you krrymarie. I appreciate that.
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11th Mar 2012 (#)
It quite unfortunate I am reading this late. Its a month now and I am sure you two are back together again. Nice tragic poem though and I hope you two become as glued as never before.
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11th Mar 2012 (#)
Thank you Funom, we're working on it.
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13th Mar 2012 (#)
Re-thinking, Steve, you can't throw her away. Carol must have stood up for her own rights and only left if she wanted to go. I bet you couldn't throw me away, I would throw you away first. It sounds very chauvenistic and I don't believe you are like that, or at least I hope not.
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13th Mar 2012 (#)
No, chauvinistic I'm not. Carol did what she must.
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13th Mar 2012 (#)
If a message is put out "I threw her away", then it leaves Carol in a situation of having been discarded, If Carol did what she wanted to do, then you did not "throw her away". She, in fact,threw you away. You throw trash away, not people!
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