A roller coaster ride

Jongleur By Jongleur, 3rd Nov 2015 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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The last couple of days have been weird, some in a good way, some not so good.

"I am on a Journey" by Jerry E Smith 10/31/15

Despite my failings, despite my feeling alone most of the time, I know,
I am not. I am on a journey of a lifetime, and while I may share the
Pathway with people, in the end, we each walk our own pathway,
Alone. What you do each day, may be in the company of others,
But you are still alone, in your decisions about what to do, say,
Eat, where to go, and yes, who to associate with. That last is
So very important, and it is the one thing that is most often
Overlooked. The people you surround yourself with will
Almost always determine your character, so be with
Good people, like minded people, so that you too,
Will be a good person. The old saw “Birds of a
Feather, flock together” is painfully untrue
In many cases. You are who you are, by
Making yourself who you are, but
Your associates will influence
This. Be good, do good.
Jerry E Smith 10/31/15

"I missed the bus" by Jerry E Smith 10/31/15

Sometimes I feel like I missed the train, that I’m a few bricks shy of a load,
You know what I mean? I just don’t get it sometimes, why the world can
Be so filled with beauty and light, yet feel so bleak. I seem to have folks
All around me who are a vexation to my spirit, who at every turn are
Dragging me down to their level. It is maddening. I know I’m not
The sharpest tool in the workshop, but I ain’t stupid, in fact I’m
Quite smart, so why do I let these folks have free rent in my
Head? It comes down to power; there are those who have
Power over me, over my living arrangements, and due
To the fact I can’t afford to change the arrangements,
I’m stuck. Things will go smoothly for days, weeks,
Or even months on occasion, then some stupidity
Will occur which I am required to comply with,
And for days afterward, I cannot clean my
Head of it, of the anger and resentment
It has caused. I should be better at this
By now. I should be able to accept it
As if it is just a ripple in the pool,
Which will subside momentarily.
I can, sometimes; I’m getting
Better at it. Ommmmmmm
Jerry E Smith, 10/31/15

"I wrote a poem" by Jerry E Smith 11/1/15

I wrote a poem, to girl I thought I loved
I called it ‘Diana’ because of the moon.
It was all about the river being so
Dark and cool, and holding the
Secret of my love. Truth be told
I loved the river, and was infatuated
With her, though her name was
Diana too.
Isn’t it odd, what our emotions will do,
Making us do absurd things in pursuit
Of unrealistic goals? That girl was
Playing me; she was involved
With someone she married not
Too long afterwards, but I was
Devastated.
For a while. I wrote the poem, in
Remembrance of that pain, that angst.
Emotions can control you, they can
Bring you great pain, and/or great
Joy; what a dichotomy! I’m glad
I don’t drink any more, I’d rather
Have a “Frontal Lobotomy”
Than a “Bottle in front of me”
"I wrote a poem" by
Jerry E Smith 11/1/15

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Angst, Depression, Poetry

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author avatar Jongleur
I play piano and sing for the Elderly in care facilities in Atlanta for 8 yrs. I am also a CNA (Certified Nursing Assistant) I work for a home care agency now, as a patient transport.

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author avatar Fern Mc Costigan
3rd Nov 2015 (#)

Awesome poem

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author avatar ZorriV
3rd Nov 2015 (#)

Nice!

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author avatar Sivaramakrishnan A
3rd Nov 2015 (#)

Very thought provoking, thanks for sharing lessons of life - siva

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author avatar Stella Mitchell
3rd Nov 2015 (#)

I agree with Siva.
Bless you
Stella

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author avatar Jongleur
3rd Nov 2015 (#)

Thank you all so much! ♥

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author avatar brendamarie
3rd Nov 2015 (#)

very interesting poetry. Thanks for sharing.

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author avatar Jongleur
3rd Nov 2015 (#)

Thank you brendamarie ☼

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author avatar Susan Hauck
13th Nov 2015 (#)

Beautiful poetry. Thanks for the post!

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author avatar Jongleur
13th Nov 2015 (#)

Thank you Susan Hauck. I appreciate that much.

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