Before My Time

Mandy Buffington By Mandy Buffington, 23rd May 2012 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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April Poem A Day Challenge Day 5 Something Before Your Time.

Before My Time

There are days that I wonder,
There are times I imagine,
Just how the life was,
Before I was born,
Before I came to being,
Was my father a better man?
Was he more kind before he knew I was to be?
Was he just scared because he was young?
And he didn’t know what to expect at that age?
What was the romance like?
Between my mom and my father?
What did she truly see in him?
What truly did the full winning of her heart?
What made them say I do?
What made it fully break?
Before I was even two?
So many questions that were left unanswered,
So many questions I will never know,
So many questions that will go unsaid,
There are days that I may wonder,
There are times that I imagine,
I wonder what life was like,
Wonder what my grandfather was like on my dad’s side,
How his kindness showed when my dad was a jerk,
How much my dad’s family cared even though my mom lost contact,
Would they accept me now many years since that last contact?
Would they even remember me?
Would they care?
There was such a history of lives before my life,
Lives that I do not know,
Since those moments,
Lives that are going on now,
Lives that do not know me,
Lives that might know I care about,
What happened before my time.

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Before, Born, Family, Father, Lives, Moments, Mother, Questions, Romance, Time

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author avatar Mandy Buffington
Mandy Buffington is a Masters in Business Management graduate. She has a chapbook published called Love, Unwrapped by Writing Knights.

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author avatar Retired
23rd May 2012 (#)

I have been in the same situation and I found my dad after 29 years last year- interesting.

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author avatar Mandy Buffington
24th May 2012 (#)

Last time I saw my father I was 12 years old and he didn't want to have anything to do with me I haven't seen him since but I haven't been able to find any of his family and I know that they did love me.

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author avatar shallimarRose
24th May 2012 (#)

Awww Mandy this makes me so sad.. My son has no contact with his kids and it was his ex wife told them lies and lied in court and he lost all rights.. we love them dearly.. his son and daughter but they only know the lies they were told...only recenly did they come of age and contact us.. feeling blessed and wish that your you and his family too.. god bless.. rose

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author avatar Mandy Buffington
24th May 2012 (#)

Thank you Rose. Sadly I doubt my real dad cares about me considering what he said when I was young but I don't know about his siblings I would have no way to really find them I tried the online channels and don't have the money to find them the other way.

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author avatar shallimarRose
24th May 2012 (#)

so sad to lose family.. my husband has many siblings he has never known.. he was not told the dad who raised him was not his father till his forties... sadly we never had the money either.. HUGGS!!!!

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author avatar Mandy Buffington
24th May 2012 (#)

Thanks hon I never really knew anything any other way because my mom lost contact when I was four so I don't really have any memories but I still appreciate it.

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