Better.

Synthaea By Synthaea, 5th Oct 2010 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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Ooh, narcissism! Generally I don't indulge in it to this extent, but eh. Loss of love often brings out the worst in people. This poem is one of the bravest things I've ever written, because it makes me look so awful. :P

Better.

Your inconsideration merely affirms what I've subconsciously known all along.
I can do better.
I deserve better.
I am better.

You were crazy to let me go.
To quote a dear friend: “A fuckin' nonce”.
You will come to regret losing me... they all do, in the end.
Because it doesn't get much better than me.

I'm sure you'll find some pretty young thing, eventually
Someone simpler, with mind and heart less convoluted
And as sincerely as I wish you all the best
We both know that in comparison, she'll be the epitome of vapidity.

Call me vain if you will, but it truly was your loss.
You did all the damage. Your bitterness and resentment are unwarranted.
My affections were sorely misplaced.
And I'm going to relish this freedom, like fuck. :)

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author avatar Synthaea
I'm quite a bizarre teenager. Intellect and eccentricity enthrall me. I am torn between science and literature, unsure which I wish my future to rest with.

Writing is my constant, and ensures my sanity (or perhaps lack thereof).
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author avatar LOVERME
5th Oct 2010 (#)

i sent u messages
on ur email
they return again and again
i know u don't want to share so now i shan't dare

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author avatar Synthaea
5th Oct 2010 (#)

That's not true, I do want to share. I got one of the addresses wrong - should be synthaea@yahoo.com.au not synthaea@yahoo.com - but synthaea@fastmail.fm definitely was a valid address.

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author avatar LOVERME
5th Oct 2010 (#)

some one called me a narcissist too
neither i understood
nor that person
and he retraced his steps then

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author avatar Synthaea
5th Oct 2010 (#)

I don't think you're narcissistic at all, you're quite modest really. I'm glad he retraced his steps, because to my knowledge he was wrong. You don't seem to be vain or overtly self-obsessed. (Having said that, everyone is the centre of their own universe.)

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author avatar LOVERME
5th Oct 2010 (#)

i like the last word most
and i know u mean it
or meant it for him
what a fucker he
his LOSSS INDEED
IF ONLY MY FRNDLY GIRL
I WAS MUCH YOUNGER THAN WHAT LIFE ENDOWS AND
PEOPLE KNOW NOT PERHAPS
I WOULDV'E KICKED HIM IN HIS BALLS
THAT fucker he.sorry for my ffckn language its exceptinal here

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author avatar Synthaea
5th Oct 2010 (#)

Naturally there are two sides to this story (at least). This was me at my most assertive. :P Nonetheless, I did mean what I said.

I realised that being free of all the resentment and pain - of him, that is to say - is truly a blessing, and was passionate about it, hence the swearing. It's great to have someone else be angry for me, I was getting really tired of it. Thank you, loverme. :)

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author avatar LOVERME
5th Oct 2010 (#)

i dont why but i like u and ur style even if u r id is not workable

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author avatar Synthaea
5th Oct 2010 (#)

Why thanks :) I like you and your style, too.

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author avatar LOVERME
6th Oct 2010 (#)

ur id workedand i thank u as a kid daughter and frnd toooooooooooo
i like uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

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author avatar mirage
6th Oct 2010 (#)

Hey good one.....i cud see the fury right infront of me!!nice write.................

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author avatar Synthaea
6th Oct 2010 (#)

Thanks very much :)
Yes... haha, I was mildly pissed off.

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author avatar ppruel
13th Oct 2010 (#)

I love the last part...I felt the force on it. Nice post.

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author avatar Synthaea
13th Oct 2010 (#)

Thank you. :)
Just so you know guys I am really quite lovely and rarely ever this resentful or (openly) vain! :D :/

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author avatar Nicolaspondylus
19th Oct 2010 (#)

ohh dear.

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author avatar Synthaea
19th Oct 2010 (#)

>.>
<.<
>.<

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author avatar Claerwyn Anwylaeth
30th Jan 2011 (#)

As the dear friend who called this silly boy that lovely name, I am proud of you. You're my fighter <3.

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