Change is right in front of you.

jocelyn By jocelyn, 22nd Apr 2011 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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A self evaluation and moment of self awareness when I realized i was part of the problem and needed to change.

Somethings Got to Give

Today something has to change and that change is me. I've fought long and hard. I've gone back and forth but it all comes down to this. I have to be better. I can't remain the same. The struggle I have every day is one I hold inside and it is swallowing me up and everything that surrounds me. I fear I ask too much. I fear I expect too much. But my greatest fear is that I'm the monster of my own nightmares. I've become the person I've always hated. So, today feels hopeless but I am still here. God has given me another breath to keep up this fight. I know he's being patient with me to finally get it right. He sees the good in me that I cannot see and what I hope to be. And today I will make that change to bring an end to my grief, my pain, my tears. I vow to make this change to bring an end to your grief, your pain, your tears. Pleae God don't let this be my end. Don't let this be the end of us. I promise you today these are not just words and I will try every day to be the one you deserve, to be the one you never want to be without. This is my promise to you.

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Changes, Difficult, Fears, Imperfect, Learning

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Very passionate about life and love...photography and writing poetry helps me display that passion.

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author avatar DianaH
22nd Apr 2011 (#)

Many of us feel as you do.

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author avatar jocelyn
22nd Apr 2011 (#)

Yes, thank you Diana.

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author avatar Songbird B
22nd Apr 2011 (#)

Be strong, Jocelyn, it is never easy, but you will get there.....Just take each day as it comes my friend...

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author avatar jocelyn
22nd Apr 2011 (#)

Yes that's very true..thank you Songbird B.

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