Diary of Depression

Cynthia Farmer By Cynthia Farmer, 23rd Apr 2010 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
Posted in Wikinut>Writing>Diaries

This page was written on one of my bad days. I have suffered with depression for the past 27 years. Perhaps this will show others that they are not alone in their feelings, and that someone does care.

Bad Day

It has found me again. The darkness that arises from somewhere deep inside myself. It sovers me and smothers me and at times I am almost completley unreachable by the outside world. The aloneness is numbing. Not lonliness, for I am constantly surrounded by people. But the aloneness, THe absence of a connection to any other human being. It brings me to the very edge of despair. I hang on somehow. I don't even know why anymore. I feel that I have nothing that is my own, all the things that were mine from thoughts in my head to possesions. Theres always someone at the ready to discount them and replace them with what they think is better for me. Yntil I have nothing left that is mine save these words on this paper.

Tags

Aloneness, Depressed, Despair, Lonely, Sad

Meet the author

author avatar Cynthia Farmer
I am a country girl at heart, My fiance and I live with our beloved boston terrier (sugar). I love life and want to share my knowlege and zest. I will be writing about health, nutrition, counrty lifestyle, frugal and simple living, home repair, and ...(more)

Share this page

moderator Sam Wormleighton moderated this page.
If you have any complaints about this content, please let us know

Comments

author avatar Goodpal
14th Dec 2010 (#)

Hi Cynthia, you are certainly not alone. Just think about it: Can any depression last forever?

You know: it can't. Thought you might like to join in the chit-chat here:

http://nut.bz/125xv531/

Reply to this comment

author avatar Retired
14th May 2013 (#)

Very powerful. Keep up the work my friend, we need more writers like you. I'll continue to follow your writings as you do the same for me. Thanks

Reply to this comment

Add a comment
Username
Can't login?
Password