Divorce

sunbeam24 By sunbeam24, 8th Feb 2015 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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The pain of divorce and unfaithfulness, the desperation of trying to save a 'sinking ship'.

Divorcing reality

Perhaps I will not see the messages
Meant only for your eyes - they burnt my soul like acid
As they undid all your lies
Perhaps I will not hear the hushed conversations the muted sentences,
My eyes will not notice -the aversion in your gaze
The absence of your leg resting on mine- in the evening time
If I ignore it all- will SHE go away?
If I don't recognise the lie, will you ignore it too - and stay
For the sake of the kids and the promise in the ring
Will you just curb the urge and 'do the right thing'
No you will not- the house is falling apart
You have used my best years and emptied my heart
But I smile and show grace, stay calm under fire
Though inside I'm sinking in your unrestrained desire
And twisted unblinking I sign the divorce
It's only a sheet of paper- like the marriage of course
I hate you, I blame you, I love you, I grieve,
But not noticing, did not make you 'believe'.

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Distressed, Divorce, Unfaithful

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Writing has always kept me sane, I do not go anywhere without a pen and paper close by. Thoughts continually seem to arrange themselves into patterns which form spoken pictures reflecting my heart.

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author avatar Sivaramakrishnan A
8th Feb 2015 (#)

Powerful words with deep feelings. Yes, marriages and divorces are more than a sheet of paper - siva

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author avatar sunbeam24
8th Feb 2015 (#)

Yes, I think so too- I was just echoing what was said to me- thank you for taking the time to comment,

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author avatar Lady Aiyanna
8th Feb 2015 (#)

Told the husband and his family to get out today after I saw their game plan.
Caught the lot of them saw the SIL causing asslicking catastrophe and flung her to prove her own character and husband to show his assets publicly.
Well it was needed so I gave them good and walked out and yes, kid is used to not having a father around as he left the family in 2010 so really doesnot need him around.
It was just me, and I finally walked out today.

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author avatar Lady Aiyanna
8th Feb 2015 (#)

Falling out of Love is a choice. I never did fall out of love, just numbed it with the pain they caused by falling out of love.

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author avatar Lady Aiyanna
8th Feb 2015 (#)

Sorry you are going through a divorce but its not just the body that has to adjust but the character and soul too. So be strong and the magic is on its way.

I married one, 16 years and said no more, enough but wanted more kids but not in this lifetime. I have just one and that is what made it different, I had to think for the child first and then after that myself and the latter took the longest as it was like burying the dead as that is what a divorce is like. You grieve but not as much as never seeing their face again.
I would prefer widowhood to divorce life. Take care.

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author avatar sunbeam24
8th Feb 2015 (#)

Lady Aiyanna, thank you so much for your care on this topic and for opening up about your own situation- I have just joined this site and it was lovely to come across such a beautiful soul on my first day in, I look forward to checking out your writing x

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