Felipe Moore – Chapter Twenty-Three

Kingwell By Kingwell, 25th Mar 2014 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/1tkg62ld/
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Felipe tells Mona about his dream and becomes more self accepting.

Mona's Dilemma

Felipe and Mona held each other for what seemed like a long time. Lying there on Felipe's bed, Mona thought of what it would look like to a stranger, yet Felipe had never shown any interest in her in a sexual way. Having dated one boy for about three months and another for two, she remembered that she had to always be on the alert for roaming hands whenever they had been alone. Felipe, on the other hand didn't even seem to notice that she was a girl! She had thought him such a gentleman at first, but after a couple of weeks of spending time together, it began to bother her that he seemed not in the least attracted to her. It was true that they were not dating, just friends who were the lone two students in grade nine at the little one-room school and who helped each other with their homework. She had expected at first that they would soon become a couple and admitted that she had been a little disappointed when that did not happen. That was almost a year ago however, and she had long ago accepted the fact that they would never be more than friends. Mona had always felt that their friendship was special though- thinking that maybe she was like the sister that Felipe had never had. Now, as they lay hugging each other in their grief over the death of a mutual friend, he had shown just how much he trusted her. Felipe seemed satisfied with the silence for the time being at least, but Mona knew that her belief in his vision, or whatever he thought it was, would be very important to him. What could she tell him? She had been raised to be truthful – and she really suspected that Felipe's experience had been a result of his emotional distress. Was there she wondered, a time when it was okay just to pretend to believe something in order to help a friend?

A Friend and a Sister

Eventually the two broke the embrace and lay back on the bed with eyes that were still red from crying. “Andrew and I were best friends”, Felipe said in a barely audible voice, “he was supposed to come for a visit before school opened in September.”  Mona was thoughtful for a moment, “I wonder if he already has”, she said softly with an almost wistful smile. Felipe stared open mouthed, than a big smile lit up his face. “Maybe that’s it, I know he had a message for me but could it be that he was also keeping a promise?”  Felipe looked quizzically at Mona, does this mean that you really believe that I saw I saw Andrew,” he asked. Mona was thoughtful, “I don’t honestly know – but wouldn’t it be great to think that he did – no one else even has to know – unless of course you want to tell others”. For the first time since they met, Felipe felt that he wanted to kiss Mona – not in a romantic way of course, but like he might kiss his mother or a sister – if he had one. Mona noted his reaction and smiled, “it can be our secret”, she whispered.   

Felipe's Changing Perspective

Felipe sat through the church service with other family members that Sunday morning, but he heard little of what was being said. He was thinking of Andrew and although he often wondered how his friend’s parents were doing, somehow he could never feel sad for Andrew himself. He could only imagine him smiling and happier then he had ever been before.  While he continued to go to church with his parents, it meant little to him anymore and he was happy when at last the service was over and they were outside again. It was different with the Bible which continued to fascinate him and which he still continued to read. God, he thought was so much bigger than the church and could never be contained within any four walls no matter how big. When he went to St. John’s or Toronto, he hadn’t decided which; he was going to learn more about other teachings. He had read about large libraries where one could borrow books, read and return them at no cost. Since he was still determined to live alone, he would have plenty of time for reading. He was also more convinced than ever that he had communicated with Andrew and that his friend now knew everything about him- and there was no condemnation. He noticed too that he no longer got angry with himself for being different. After all hadn't Andrew said that all would be fine!
 

To be continued - See Chapter Twenty -Four
Read from the beginning - See Chapter One.

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Bible Reading, Church Of England, Church Service, Crying, Cuddling, Friendship, Secret, Sisterly Love, St Johns, Toronto

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I am 75 years old and retired.I like writing short stories, poetry as well other articles of interest.

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author avatar Fern Mc Costigan
25th Mar 2014 (#)

Nice post, interesting in every chapter Kingwell!

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author avatar Kingwell
25th Mar 2014 (#)

Thank you Fern. I'm hoping to be able to move a bit faster with this but I can't promise anything.

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author avatar cnwriter..carolina
26th Mar 2014 (#)

you certainly know how to tempt us to read more Kingwell...thank you...

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author avatar Kingwell
26th Mar 2014 (#)

Thank you Carolina

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author avatar MarilynDavisatTIERS
26th Mar 2014 (#)

Good morning, Kingwell, nicely done. I think a story moves at its own pace - and in this case, stay tuned...~Marilyn

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author avatar Kingwell
26th Mar 2014 (#)

I think you may be right Marilyn. Thank you for reading and for your comment.

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author avatar Sivaramakrishnan A
26th Mar 2014 (#)

I believe life and death should not make a difference between two who love and have feelings for each other. We move around here while those who have left us should be looking over us till we join them. There should be closure like Felipe has got accustomed to now. Keep them coming Kingwell at your sedate pace - siva

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author avatar Kingwell
26th Mar 2014 (#)

Thank you Siva and that sounds about right to me. Andrew now sees the big picture and it seems that Felipe is finding closure through the his communing with Andrew. In which case both can move on and will no doubt meet again on some level. Your interest in the story inspires me to continue writing.

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author avatar Phyl Campbell
2nd Apr 2014 (#)

Poor Felipe and Mona -- both wanting what may not be theirs to have!! Will they learn to make the best of it, or find new situations? I'm curious -- and so are many...

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author avatar Kingwell
2nd Apr 2014 (#)

Thank you Phyl.

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author avatar Delicia Powers
1st May 2014 (#)

his young journey... ever hopeful...will he be true to himself... and does this bring a life of happiness...reading on to find out Kingwell ...

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author avatar Kingwell
1st May 2014 (#)

Thank you Delicia

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