Heartsick

MCayou By MCayou, 9th Oct 2013 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/2-m4gg2q/
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This essay is a reflection on societies influence and reaction to the Aurora, CO theater shootings the summer before last, but it offers timeless observations and ever increasing questions.

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Heartsick

by Mark Cayou

I am sick, and I am not alone. Haven’t felt well for quite some time, but have not been willing to admit I might be suffering from something more than a pesky bug, an annoyance that will pass in time, especially if I just ignore it. Ignorance of this pariah’s damaging effects actually proves to strengthen it, embolden it. In fact, I fear that this initial annoyance has morphed into a full blown disease that is attacking my heart – the hearts of many of us. Images and emotions tied to (in no particular order of importance) Columbine, 9/11, Octomom, Fort Hood, Charlie Sheen, and now the Aurora theater killings – to name but a few, start the symptoms flaring. In retrospect, I have suffered silently for longer than I care to remember, but since no TV ad has expressly addressed my symptoms, along with the further debilitating side effects of a desperately needed cure, why worry?

I’ll tell you why; our lives may be at stake, or at the very least, our hearts are in trouble. We are unwittingly allowing ourselves to be infected by a powerful yet subtle, profound yet evasive deadly epidemic. Can’t you feel it? Deep in your heart? Too many lost souls can’t; they’ve already grown too numb and weak. Numb to the pressurized need for more, more, more. Numb to the assault on our morals and sense of decency. Numb to the abhorrent ways we treat each other. Numb to the muted cries of breaking hearts. The more desensitized the heart, the faster the disease spreads.

Every corner of every community is festering with the puss that defies description, precludes classification, and even eludes taking a name. And the heart is merely the incubation crevice. The pervading numbness then begins to spread to our other senses until they fall victim. A deaf, dumb, and blind society groping in the dark for a tourniquet is ‘bleeding out’ and no number of sutures or amount of gauze can stem the tide of decades of ignoring a sickness that demands more. More thrills and chills at the amusement park; more blood and gore in our movies; more fire power, dismemberment and realism in our video games; more power and entitlement in the workplace – all resulting from a compromised heart.

Literal, symbolic, metaphorical – interpret this as you need. But when the demons of a sick heart invade the mind and produce massacres in schools, businesses, and theaters, what changes? Who or what is to blame? Hearts are destroyed, attention is heightened, and blame is passed around. Batman even visits the wounded and professional athletes take the photo op. Sadly, this focus is temporary. Life as we know it will return to its awkward churning and the numbness will creep back in for another incubation period. After all, we’ll need some entertainment to try to get back to normal. But what has become ‘normal’? Does it really matter in a society suffering from a fatal heart condition?

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Insanity, Leadership, Questions Unanswered, Sadness, Sickness, Society

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As a retired English teacher, I have much to say on topics from education to psychology to societal influences.

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author avatar micheal
9th Oct 2013 (#)

its a scary world!

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author avatar MCayou
9th Oct 2013 (#)

Yes...especially for those of us with our eyes open.

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author avatar Stella Mitchell
10th Oct 2013 (#)

This is an excellent article , with great understanding of the ' heart ' condition of our planet .
God bless you
Stella

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author avatar MCayou
10th Oct 2013 (#)

What are we, and what can we ever hope to achieve without 'heart?' Thanks.

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