Hiding my Depression

Madhu Kalyan By Madhu Kalyan, 10th Dec 2014 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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I've always been hiding my depression through a mask of happiness. Nobody was able to tell. Maybe this will eighteen thoughts who are blind.

Hiding my Depression

Hiding my depression behind a mask of happiness,
trying to be like everyone else by not showing my true nature.
Depression is who I am nothing can change that,
I'm not happy, I'm sad on the inside but people cannot see it.

I'm hiding my depression from a truly judgmental world,
They wouldn't understand my feelings at all.
This depression grows stronger with each angry moment,
Consuming my soul and making me hide more of myself.

I'm hiding my depression from all my family and friends,
They wouldn't be able to fathom what they can't understand.
They see a cheery person when they look at my smile,
But stare into my cold eyes and you can tell I'm dead inside.

I'm hiding my depression from a truly happy world,
There is no one else like me, I'm all alone.
They wouldn't understand what I'm going through,
They'd push their happiness on me, and make my sadness worse.

I'm hiding my depression from this evil world.
I will never show my true side, or maybe I will.
Maybe someday I'll show how I was really bred,
with a 12 gauge with hollow tip shells to my head...

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Body, Depressed People, Depressing, Depression, Eyes, Friend, Happiness, Happy, Head, Judgment, Love, Lust, Mask, Money, Nature, Sex, Soul

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I’m an author, blogger, photographer, traveler and food fanatic.

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author avatar Lady Aiyanna
10th Dec 2014 (#)

Good Luck, been there and have learnt staying away from negatives and negative people helps.

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author avatar Madhu Kalyan
11th Dec 2014 (#)

Thank you

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author avatar Utah Jay
10th Dec 2014 (#)

I remember depression, that dark hole in my soul...It is a battle that can be one, but it is for you to win. I think if you are strong enough to come here and put this before us that you do want to win, and so it begins. I'm betting on you and the sickness inside...Get help now.

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author avatar Utah Jay
10th Dec 2014 (#)

What I meant to say is I'm betting on you and not the sickness inside.

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author avatar Madhu Kalyan
11th Dec 2014 (#)

Thank you Utah

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author avatar LOVERME
11th Dec 2014 (#)

if u can so do then a real poet r u but acknowledge all those who visit you ere u become obscure

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