How Can I Miss You If You Won't GO AWAY????

aking1614 By aking1614, 18th Feb 2012 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/22cvsfu_/
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Series of poems aimed at guys (or girls) who simply can't take a hint. "No" sometimes (okay, most of the time) really means "NO". When it's over, it's over.

Pursuit

What is it with you?
I’ve tried to explain that I don’t have time
To play games with you anymore
I have things to do – goals to reach
You are a thorn in my flesh
Your emails, text messages, calls
A constant, endless stream of interruptions
To my creativity, my life flow
You are persistent, relentless, determined
Knowing full well that if I slow down
Long enough for you to catch me
You’ll turn tale and run
You’ve proved that on more
Than one occasion
But the more I ignore you
The harder you run after me
Rather like a spoiled child
Calling his mother over and over
When she’s already told him
“Mommy’s busy. I can’t play right now.”
I’m focused on other things
Important things, life altering things
No time for a man-child looking
For someone to validate him
To hold his hand through the latest mid-life crisis
Give him just enough confidence
To sprint away and chase after
Some hot, young thing
Coming back limping and wounded
From trying to run a race you couldn’t possibly win
At your age
I used to let you catch me, but now
I’m moving in a realm you don’t understand
Going in a direction where you can’t follow
I won’t put my life on Pause
To stroke your fragile ego
Nor will I risk what I have gained
In an attempt to make time
To be pursued by you

Vanity

For some reason unbeknownst to me
You believe that thoughts of you
Still dominate my mind
But you really don’t rent much space
We had what we had
It was fun, but I’ve moved on
You’ve been replaced with something real
It’s you, not me, who keeps trying
To crawl back into my life
When I finally break down and answer
Your persistent calls
You ask me what have been
My latest thoughts of you
There have been no such thoughts
Stop trying to resurrect what was
Obviously meant to be short-lived
A transitional time for both of us
To learn a lesson and go forward
You have someone else
In your life now, as do I
Why would you presume that
Even for a moment
I would risk something good
To return to the drama we shared?
You are not the be-all, end-all
You think yourself to be
What I once considered flattery
And later called desperation
I now recognize as vanity

Give It Up,Let It GO

Why are you in such denial?
Holding onto hope for you and I
What’s over is over and what’s done is done
I’m through with it
We had a good run, you and I
But it’s dead and buried
Not in the manner of a dog’s bone
To be unearthed again at a future date
Truly dead with only fading memories remaining
There will be no resurrection
Why should I call you?
What purpose could it possibly serve?
Other than to give you false hope
I’ve said my goodbyes and made my apologies
I have no words of comfort or consolation
There will be no outpouring of emotion
I will not say that I miss you
I’m living life and loving it
To say my plate is full would be an incredible understatement
Perhaps you should find something to do with your time
Something else to fill your idle mind
So that, like me, you will finally
Be able to move on with your life
To give it up and let it go.

Realization?

It has taken what? Literally months
For you to grasp the truth
You are no longer a part of my life
At least not in the way you would have wanted
After countless attempts to reel me in
To reignite the flame, long since doused
What was it that finally clued you in?
What triggered the switch and made the light turn on?
Could it have been my constant refusals
To travel down memory lane with you?
My delay in answering your many messages
Or perhaps it was my complete and utter failure
To call you each and every time you asked me
Whatever the case, I am relieved
That the realization has begun to sink in
Do you understand now?
My heart no longer skips a beat
When I see your name in my inbox
I don’t get excited at the prospect
Of running into you by chance
Or hearing you voice at the other end of a phone line
I know you were hoping
You no longer have that hold over me
When I see you on the street
I will stop to say hello, I’ll ask how you have been
But that is as far as it will go
If you have truly come to that realization
You‘ll stop wasting my precious time

Hello! Is Anyone There?

I suppose I could throw out all the old clichés
Point out that
The lights are on but nobody’s home
Good thing your skull is so thick, else the repeated blows
Against the wall could do major damage
Not at all deterred by my rejection
Nor my insults
You return, as a dog to its vomit
Where most would turn away in disgust
Never to pass this way again, you
Are unable to hear the word NO,
Cannot process its meaning, or simply
Refuse to accept it for what it is
I am not available in any capacity
Nor interested
Please turn your attention elsewhere
I am met with a blank stare
You will call me tomorrow

Tags

Denial, Harassment, Persistence, Relationships, Stalking, Vanity

Meet the author

author avatar aking1614
I am an engineer by trade, but a poet and songstress at heart. I started writing occasional articles online about five years ago, but poetry is still my first love.

find me on twitter@ashanpoetry

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author avatar Melissa Dawn
18th Feb 2012 (#)

Beautifully, beautifully done. What an amazingly talented ladie. I loved the way the poems flowed into each other. My fave was the first :-) I've encountered fellas like that!

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author avatar aking1614
18th Feb 2012 (#)

Thank you for taking the time to read these. Unfortunately, I've met some guys like this, too! :-)

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author avatar Buzz
19th Feb 2012 (#)

Wow, beautiful poems you shared with us. It was worth reading each line. Thanks, Ashan.

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author avatar Sheila Newton
19th Feb 2012 (#)

SWEET! This is a very true slice of life. How observant.

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author avatar Songbird B
20th Feb 2012 (#)

Ashan, you create the most powerful poetry I have ever read...How is it that some guys just can't take 'No' as an answer? lol.. Fantastic poetry as always..

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author avatar aking1614
20th Feb 2012 (#)

You'd think they'd get tired after a while. :-)

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author avatar Tranquilpen
22nd Feb 2012 (#)

Thank you Ashan these were really great.

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author avatar Retired
15th Feb 2014 (#)

Wow! You are an excellent poet! Much love

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author avatar aking1614
15th Feb 2014 (#)

Thank you, Dexta Ray. I just write from experience and write from the heart.

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