I Hate You Anyway

moyossie By moyossie, 7th Jul 2011 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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Domestic violence - it may seem as though I am obsessed with this, but I'm not. It just hurts me to know that people suffer but still find it in their bodies to, dare I say, forgive the person inflicting pain. It's a battle of emotions. Love you, hate you.

The Difficulties Of Domestic Violence

There are so many reasons to hate you.
So many ways to hate you.
So many reasons I'm still there.
So many reasons I die inside.
Why? Why do you do this to me?
What have I ever done to deserve this?
If anyone has a problem, it is you.
There's no justifiable reason for domestic violence and so you have no reason.
Yet, you do it.
So who has a problem?


You claim to be a religious man,
Yet you talk about the peck in another man's eye.
Why ignore your own? Oh, why?
I hate the way you look at me.
When you look at me, I feel the rage turn inside me and I want to hit you.
I want to hit you for the years of pain you caused me.
I want to hit you for oblivion towards the little things.
Most of all, I want to hit you because maybe, just maybe, I'll get my own.
But I can't.
I hate you because I didn't want to hate you.
I couldn't possibly hate you.
But when the weight of your hand
On the back of my neck,
When it hit me
Like a bolt anxiously waiting to attack,
My hatred became certified.
I hate you.
I don't hate you.

But can I really hate you?

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Anger, Domestic Abuse, Domestic Abuse Story, Domestic Violence, Hatred, Hatred And Doubt, Love

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I often think I have an ample blend of wit, head, and heart.

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author avatar Lila Bangsawan
8th Jul 2011 (#)

Anger with love. Hater because you love. Good post,Moyosie.

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author avatar Denise O
8th Jul 2011 (#)

Moyosie, do not worry about writing what your heart wants to write, just do it hon. I have no compassion for those that choose to take their own miserable life out on others. I was raised in a abusive family, saw it break my mother down both physically and mentally by the hands of my dad, let alone the physical and mental pain he inflicted on my siblings and I. Some people say I am just mean because, I will not take pity on my dad well, I gave him my one last chance a few years back and as you more than likely have guessed, he had to turn to the dark side. I have no room for him in my life and I am okay with it. Now hon, add some tags to this page, so others can find. Thank you for sharing.:)

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author avatar Songbird B
8th Jul 2011 (#)

Powerful work, Moyossie. I have never understood why women return to men that abuse them this way, but I think psychologically, women get beaten down, thinking they are at fault, and deserve no better, and Love, can give you a thousand reasons to stay, even when it doesn't make sense... You really have captured this so well in your article, but I am with Denise, don't forget to use keywords from your page as tags, so this can come to others attention too. You are a talented, insightful writer my friend, I would love more people to find your work and enjoy it the way that I do...

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author avatar Steve Kinsman
17th Jul 2011 (#)

Very powerful poetry, moyossie. Women need to love themselves enough to leave the very first time a man lays a hand upon them. And men - why do you hate yourselves so much that you do this?

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