I am Gray

HJ Esteban By HJ Esteban, 6th Oct 2012 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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I am gray, and I would contend that being gray is not being weak. I refuse to go along mainstream ideas that people had to be either on the right or on the left, black or white, and that anything in between is evil or mediocre. This idea is the cause why our world is full of hatred, racism and anger. It demands that people be put in a certain classification and sadly, effectively creates a divide between us.

Taking Sides

In this early hour on this side of the globe, I have come to ponder about the way I look at things and I realized that I am Gray, neither black nor white. What do I mean?

I hate choosing sides. I always find myself in the middle of things, especially unpleasant situations. I suppose from someone looking from the outside, this is expected. When one do not make a choice which side to take, he is most likely to be caught in the middle. I found a lot of sayings, words of wise people, if you may, that speaks of the dangers of choosing to be in the middle. Some say it is the ultimate sign of weakness. Some say a neutral person is partial to the status quo. While others have said that when you are being neutral, you are serving the oppressor.

I do understand what the words mean. I just find it hard to impose on myself. I will not take a side. If any choice will have to made, that choice would be to not take a side. In simple situations like being in the middle of friends who are having trouble with their differences, I don't take a side although most of the time this ends up in me being identified as the antagonist. What can I do? I just accept it.

I cannot sway myself to think with the world about this. I cannot possibly take a side because I am gray, and I see gray. Both parties have their positives and negatives. I see people as people, and I cannot bring myself to condemn anyone because an opposing side is exposing the bad things about them. The way I see it, none of them has any right to claim righteousness over the other.

Refusing to take a Side

I am gray, and I would contend that being gray is not being weak. I choose not to go along with the ideas of the world that one is either good or bad. I refuse to go along mainstream ideas that people had to be either on the right or on the left, black or white, and that anything in between is evil or mediocre. In my point of view, these ideas are the causes why our world is full of hatred, racism and anger. This idea demands that people be put in a certain classification and effectively creates a divide between us.

People can get along peacefully if they choose to, with complete acceptance of others and with less obsession of their superiority over the other, they can choose to. Unfortunately, the world thinks that if you start to tolerate people you allow them to step on you and that this is wrong. No, neutrality is not the mainstream idea. This is the idea of today. That one should be always on top. That one should be always one step ahead of others. That one should assert his place in this earth and that place is nowhere but on top of everyone else. I REFUSE TO BUY THIS IDEA. Let's think about this. Which is better? To tolerate our differences or constantly fight each other for the top spot?

I choose to be gray. I am gray. I will not take a side, I choose to be in everyone's side. I will find myself in the middle of things all the time. Both sides will put a pressure on me to choose them and both will think that I am for the other side because I refused to choose them. I understand this. It will be the greatest test to my inner strength, but I am certain that it will be the choice that will bring me real peace.

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Choosing Sides, Neutrality, Peace, Racism, Tolerance

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author avatar HJ Esteban
I am a researcher and I love to write. I am particularly interested in current events trends. I am mostly a self learner and I love to share what I learn with others.

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author avatar Retired
29th Dec 2012 (#)

Thanks for the insight,success for your article

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