I love you, Pa

Rocket Raja By Rocket Raja, 8th Jun 2012 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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A walk on the beach on a Sunday morning kindled nostalgia within me, as I went abroad alone for the first time.

Dear Pa...


Today was the first time I went to the beach on a Sunday morning without you. Looking at the heaps of golden brown sand stretching ahead of me, the cogwheels inside my head stop, switch gears, and rewind slowly.

I see us daddy.


I see myself holding onto your little finger like how a drowning man clings to a life-boat. I see you lifting me high above the rushing waves, seconds before they try to swallow the terrified me. I see myself gurgle with a childish laughter, which you mistake for fear and pat reassuringly on my back.

The filmy father-son love stories showcase an all enduring father who has infinite patience and composure bestowed upon him, showering his son with smiles and hugs no matter what. I cannot help but scoff at them.

You were nothing like that daddy.


You let me run away from you in the beach, trip and fall in the sand because you knew beyond doubt that I’d return to you. You helped me realize my mistakes. You knew you couldn’t be with me all my life, so you made me my own teacher daddy. I know I can never thank you enough for that.

You spanked me when I crossed the line. When you caught me with a cigar, you gave me a couple more. I’ve never touched one after that daddy, I promise. You seemed to know me more than I did myself. You did not yield to all my tantrums, definitely not buy me everything that I asked, cried or begged for, because you feared I would grow up thinking that life is an easy game which can be won irrespective of how I played it.

Mom always complains playfully that my first words were “Da-Da” and not “Ma-Ma”, but I guess I called out to you first, for a reason. You had always told me that it never mattered to you whether it was a boy or a girl, as long as you were blessed with a child. But you were wrong. It is not you daddy, but me who was blessed to be born as your son, the star of your eye.

From the moment when mother handed the blood-covered baby to you, to this moment when I’m writing this letter, you have had one hand on my shoulder, consistently molding me and pulling me back to the main track whenever I derailed.

My heart wells with pity for those sons and fathers who have failed to understand each other, for they have missed one of the most intimate and serene relationships one can ever experience. Any man can become a father, but it takes something special to be a dad. They say that your father is the only man who is biologically programmed to love you, and you made me agree to every word of it daddy.

As I stand up to shake the grains of sand off me, I find there are still hundreds of grains clinging on to the back of my jeans. We are no different. Hundreds of tiny characteristics of yours have stuck to me, reminding me of you wherever I go and whatever I do.

I almost laughed when I came across this on the internet.

4 YEARS OF AGE ~ My Daddy can do anything!
8 YEARS OF AGE ~ My Dad knows a lot! A whole lot!
12 YEARS OF AGE ~ My Father doesn't really know quite everything.
14 YEARS OF AGE ~ Naturally, Dad doesn't know that, either.
16 YEARS OF AGE ~ Dad? He's hopelessly old-fashioned!
18 YEARS OF AGE ~ That old man? He's way out of date!
25 YEARS OF AGE ~ Well, he might know a little bit about it.
35 YEARS OF AGE ~ Before we decide, let's get Dad's opinion.
45 YEARS OF AGE ~ Wonder what Dad would have thought about it?
65 YEARS OF AGE ~ Wish I could talk it over with Dad!

But I guess its because I never really grew older than 8 years daddy.

You are one of a kind. I love you daddy.

- A father’s son.

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Awesome, Caring, Daddy, Example, Father, Intimate, Love, Relationship, Sensible, Son, Strict

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A teenager with a wandering mind, restless fingers and loads of time. Hoping to do a good job.

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author avatar Pradeep Kumar B
8th Jun 2012 (#)

Very touching! A great tribute to your father. Thank you for sharing.

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author avatar Stella Mitchell
23rd Jan 2013 (#)

Apart from my heavenly Father , I have never known a father's love like that ever.
You have been very blessed.
Stella

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