In the deep end

Prienderen Moodley By Prienderen Moodley, 6th Apr 2012 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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A poem about the conflicting emotions we go through when we are involved with someone who is adulterous, emotionally and mentally abusing and at times disrespectful.

Joined to a nightmare

I want to be blind so I don't see your adultery, but I want to be able to see your sparkling eyes at night,
My love for you is still there even though we constantly fight.
There were times when walks on the beach had some excitement,
Now it just feels like an indictment
At times I want to kiss you
But then I fear that I'd be catching something worse than the flu.

At times I wish I was deaf so I don't hear your abuse,
It feels like to I'm treated like refuse.
You may sleep like a log
But our relationship only sees thick fog.
Regretable is the day we met,
If only I didn't let you persuade me to board that jet.
The heart still feels that chemistry that binds us together,
For the times that you made me feel like a feather.

The mind however knows there are just too many issues,
It does pain me to see you pile up the tissues.
This is not easy for me to say
But it seems like we just acting out a play.
Every time I see you with him I lose a bit more hair,
How insulting it is to see you come home and give me an innocent stare.

Have I not given you my love and my everything?
Yet you choose to throw away twenty years with a ridiculous fling.
Your words can be so harsh and hurtful,
To think that I once could show you off and be boastful.
The words and actions have so much power,
It rebounds back to me off the walls in the shower.

I often play these back like a tape recorder in my mind,
You were once a beautiful find.
Long ago I realised what must be done,
I even agonised over it during my daily run.
It's sad to just throw everything away,
But it would be like walking on thorns if I had to stay.

So I guess this is goodbye, my love,
You are now someone else's dove.




Here are a few other articles that I have written that you may be interested in:-

In the deep end
The lover's guide to a healthier relationship
Lover's guide to a healthier relationship part 2
You leave me breathless

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Adulteration, Adulterers, Adultery, Cheat, Cheaters, Cheating, Cheating Partners, Cheating Relations, Cheats, Emotional Baggage, Emotional Wellbeing, Emotions, Mental Abuseemotional Abuse, Regret, Regret The Past, Regrets

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author avatar Prienderen Moodley
Writing is about the heart, I want to touch peoples' hearts about something important like love. If something touches the heart, it makes it thought provoking.

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author avatar Retired
9th Dec 2012 (#)

I was very touched by this poem.

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