Leaving Home

CarolStarred Page By Carol, 31st Mar 2016 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/ukmy6ze_/
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Ann knew that one day Billy would leave home, but now the time had come and she wasn't sure she could cope with it. Read on to find out more.

Leaving Home

Ann watched Billy bringing his suitcase down stairs. His youthful arms were so strong, he made it look easy. Then he placed it on the floor, releasing the handle, and propped it up by the front door.

He turned towards her awkwardly. Even though he was twenty one, to her he was still her boy, her handsome boy with his blond curls, and very green eyes. She knew he wouldn't hug her, Billy didn't do hugs, but she was used to that, and even without the hugs, she knew he loved her, they would always be close because his life had been such a journey already.

She could feel such a lump in her throat, and tears pricked at her eyes, so she turned away so he would not see them. Sometime she cursed herself for having emotions, she knew the pain of his loss would be tremendous, and the worry that he might not cope with his new life.

Billy opened the door, then turned and touched at her shoulder.
" Bye Mum, I'll see you soon."

Ann Composed herself

" OK son, don't forget to text me ." she said trying to sound bright.
She had to control herself, she mustn't ask when, nor could she come with him now to his new home, she must let Billy become independent.

It had been just the two of them when his dad had been killed in a car crash. Billy was only three, so he had very vague memories of his father, but for Ann, when she lost David, she had lost the love of her life.

She had devoted her life to bringing up her son, it was what David would have wanted, and in the beginning, she had blamed herself because her son was different. He was happy to be at home with his toys, he had very few friends, and so they spent a great deal of time together.

He was late in speaking, although extremely bright at school. He had speech therapy, but it was plain to see that Billy was never going to be a great conversationalist. But they couldn't see that he was made that way, they expected more of him, and then one day they gave him a label which seemed to explain everything. They told her he was autistic.

Ann felt Protective

This diagnosis made Ann realise life was going to be tough for Billy. If she could have possibly taken the condition off him, and borne it herself she would have done. like any mother, she would have done everything to make her son happy, and keep him safe.

As time went on she learned to , cope and although it wasn't easy, she felt she understood her son more than most. He had help at school with his social skills, but he was never going to be the life and soul of the party, to her he was unique, and knowing he was different only made her love him more with the fierce protective love like a tiger protecting her cub.

When Billy was eighteen he left sixth form and went to University. It was in Canterbury, and as it was so near, Ann felt there was no need for him to board there, he could come home every day, so this is what he did. Now he was twenty one,and had graduated with honours. He had not wanted to go to the graduation ceremony, too many people for his liking, but he had done it just for her, and she had sat there full of pride when she saw him go up to be congratulated.

The Job

Billy had so many qualifications, she was sure he could have made a career with anything he tried, but for his autism, which meant without the social skills, he would find it very hard to pass an interview. Ann's heart ached for her son, he hadn't asked to be born with autism, it was not his fault, and she hoped it wasn't hers, after all she had carried him, and given birth to him.

Daniel Potter, his teacher, had been quite involved with Billy during his years at school, and Ann was pleased to see that even whilst Billy was at University, he took a great deal of interest in his progress, and regularly visited them. Ann was glad of his company, and the support he had always shown towards Billy, because not many other people had,, and sometimes she had felt totally alone.

When she heard about the job at the Riding School, she was a bit taken aback. Surely Billy was over qualified for that, but she said nothing, except to Daniel.
" If Billy wants to go for it, you know how much he loves horses, then why not. As long as he's happy, what does it matter?"

The Wisdom of his words

Ann realised that Daniel's words made sense. If he got through the interview, the job would suit Billy. He loved horses, and had been riding for years. He had met other children with autism when he went riding, because it was a known fact that autistic children have a rapport with animals, rather than people. For Billy to have a job where he spent most of his time with horses rather than people would suit him so much.

Nobody was more thrilled than Ann when he got the job. Billy showed more animation than he ever had, so it looked like the job was just right for him. She had wondered if she should contact the organisation, and explain about his autism, but Daniel had told her not to worry, just to let Billy prove to her that he could cope, so she listened to him, and held back, because as he was a teacher, she felt Daniel would know what was right.

But she had not reckoned on Billy being invited to live in with the rest of the staff after only a month of working there, and then her fears surfaced, how would he cope, he wasn't sociable, and how would the rest of the staff react to him.? But to her great surprise Billy couldn't wait to move in, and deep down, if she was honest with herself, she felt rejected because he was leaving her..

Daniel Arrived

Daniel appeared by the open door, and she thought fleetingly how kind he was to come and make sure Billy was all right today. Her heart warmed towards this man who always seemed to be there when he was needed.

Daniel and Billy exchanged a high five, it was their greeting always.
" Well done Billy, I am sure your mum is so proud of you."

Billy wasn't sure his mum could cope with losing him right now, and he felt so grateful that Daniel had come round. He wished that she would let Daniel take care of her now. Being autistic didn't mean he was stupid, and he knew the visits were more for her than for himself, and he didn't mind because he was leaving home. He might not show his emotions, but his mum had always been his life, but now he had a new one, and so must she. He did something he didn't usually do, he hugged her to him briefly, it wasn't so bad, and said quickly.
" Mum I feel I can be myself at the Riding School, I am accepted there, I feel normal. Please understand."

Suddenly he was gone, walking briskly up the road to the bus stop, and Ann turned to Daniel in bewilderment, wondering what he had meant.
" He's comfortable amongst his friends, there are other autistic people working there, didn't you realise?" said Daniel.

How blinkered she had been! Ann realised she had been so wrapped up in Billy, she had not noticed anything else. Of course it was a training school for autistic adults, which led to a job in a safe environment. No wonder Billy wanted to go there. Now Billy was gone she would probably lose Danie's friendship, and she felt an ache inside at the thought of it.
" Thanks for coming to see him off."

Daniel decided it was time to tell her. " Well I came to see you as well.!"
" What about?"
" Coming out for a meal with me, no excuses, you don't have to worry about leaving Billy on his own."

Ann suddenly realised she was free, she had put her own life on hold ever since Billy had been born, and now she didn't have to. Billy had made the decision for her, and a meal out with Daniel sounded lovely, she felt so happy
" Oh how nice, thank you so much." Her eyes met Daniel's, sparkling with happiness, she had not had a date for over twenty two years now.

Daniel admired this beautiful woman who had brought up her son alone, and supported him in every way. He had loved her so much for so long,and all he wanted to do was look after her. He had Billy's blessing, and so however long it took , he was determined to make her his wife. She would never be alone. He gave her a gentle kiss on the cheek, and arranged to call back later to pick her up.

Ann was excited, she spent most of her life in trousers, but had a nice black dress upstairs which was new, but had not yet been worn. She wanted to look attractive when Daniel took her out, so she would wear her hair loose, and put some makeup on, at forty four, she could still scrub up quite well. This was her date night, she felt like an excited teenager, and she knew she was going to have fun.
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Anxious, Autism, Intelligent, Leaving Home, Lonely, Love, Riding School

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author avatar Carol
I am a proud mother and grandmother, and an author. I have had 7 books published. My hobbies are walking, swimming, and playing badminton. I try to raise more awareness of autism with my writing.

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author avatar Carol
4th Apr 2016 (#)

Thank you Peter, for the quick moderation and star.

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author avatar Stella Mitchell
4th Apr 2016 (#)

What a lovely story dear Carol ...and with a happy ending for all concerned .
Just as I like it .
Many blessings to you
love Stella ><

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author avatar Carol
4th Apr 2016 (#)

I am glad you liked it Stella xx

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author avatar LOVERME
5th Apr 2016 (#)

You may have forgotten me ma'am ...
I left home at 15
no one remembers me..
not even u
who i respect here the most ...
you no longer walk my pages...
since been ages
a ruffian here may have prevailed
..but remember ma'am
I respect thee

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author avatar Carol
5th Apr 2016 (#)

Loverme I could NEVER forget you. and your beautiful poetry. I have been working very hard, and not writing many blogs, just doone 2 this week before we go off on holiday. I promise I will visit your pages during today. God bless you, no ruffina, just a great poet. x

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author avatar LOVERME
10th Apr 2016 (#)

ur great madam a special one posted with ur permission

u may delete it if u wish

Abide with me

Of who and what
and
the why fore
Would you like to leave
a message
of a God created
by man
as nature came first

should there be Religion
should there be Visa
or
only Americans are exceptions
if so why!

Shouldn’t gather together
this world’s
Intelligencia
and
lead human all from darkness
in to the wisdom
called light
and
seep and creep out of the blindness
where mostly today man does reside
many here since ages in caves beside

be free like me
an eagle that I be
at every airport
is my home
I guarantee
just tell me
and
I’ll meet ye

Now Abide with me!
Will ye...

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author avatar Carol
10th Apr 2016 (#)

Lovely thank you Loverme

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author avatar Nancy Czerwinski
5th Apr 2016 (#)

Carol, thank you for sharing this story. It brought tears to my eyes. It made me think of how sometimes we don't see what is right in front of us. Blessings to you today and always!

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author avatar Nancy Czerwinski
5th Apr 2016 (#)

Carol, I forgot to congratulate you on the shiny gold star. I must say your story is amazing.

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author avatar Carol
5th Apr 2016 (#)

I am glad you liked it Nancy, many thanks.

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author avatar Carol
6th Apr 2016 (#)

Many thanks Nancy

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author avatar Helen Thomas
9th Apr 2016 (#)

Beautiful story ~ Carol. I thoroughly enjoyed reading it.

Blessings.

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author avatar Helen Thomas
9th Apr 2016 (#)

Beautiful story ~ Carol. I thoroughly enjoyed reading it.

Blessings.

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author avatar Carol
9th Apr 2016 (#)

Thanks for reading Helen

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author avatar Mariah
10th Apr 2016 (#)

Wonderful story with such a rewarding outcome for both mother and son, very uplifting and beautifully written Carol.

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author avatar Carol
10th Apr 2016 (#)

I am glad you liked it Mariah.

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author avatar Retired
17th Apr 2016 (#)

Beautiful story Carol.

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author avatar Carol
17th Apr 2016 (#)

Many thanks Tootsie

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