Mind's unweaving

Synthaea By Synthaea, 6th Aug 2010 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/7.o14j61/
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General confusion, punctuated with intermittent rational cognition and fervent emotions.

Mind's unweaving

mind's unweaving
fragmenting
contradictions, truths, uncertainties
half-formed opinions/beliefs, loosely based on half-remembered facts
decided that truth is the ultimate goal.
it's a brilliant song. or is it?
conversation – so many conflicting urges. urge to speak the truth, be honest. urge to be courteous, be considerate, be empathic. urge to be respected, be heard, be loved. state opinions, be passionate and expressive but reserved when required. be logical and rational, also be wild and spontaneous and impulsive! stupid instinctive urge to conform – go away!
so many different feelings – hormones I suppose.
warring mindsets – I'm just not sure “how to be”. narrow-minded, cynical, judgemental... these all have horrifically negative connotations, but it seems that these “ways of being” get me to the truth of things, although aren't popular with the general public. but oh, think of the negative connotations; the turned heads, the eyebrow raised in disapproval, the 'she refuses to fit the mould'. can't be like that always, need to strike a balance or I won't get anywhere, won't push through the ranks.
“there she goes, that crazy girl; she thinks she's something in this world”. - Lady GaGa. alarming.
quality vs. quantity.
I adore computers {the logic of computer science is comforting} but oh, such everyday frustration. green squiggly lines in Microsoft Word, indicating “grammatical errors”. you don't know anything. none of you know anything.
vanity. I am more intelligent, I am wiser, I am more perceptive and discerning and empathic than you all.

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author avatar Nicolaspondylus
6th Aug 2010 (#)

This intrigues me to no end

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author avatar Synthaea
6th Aug 2010 (#)

I'm glad. And me too, actually. ;/

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author avatar Liam Mcdonald-Lurch
7th Aug 2010 (#)

This is so you

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author avatar Synthaea
7th Aug 2010 (#)

Really? Damn. That's kinda alarming ;)

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author avatar Sinbad the SailorMan
11th Aug 2010 (#)

Now I have Formed a little picture of you, be it imagined or intuition. I envision a well cultured young lady of presumed stature, that has not been able to exercise her position's status and /or power.
Or one who comes from a well to do family with many influential abilities. I am now intrigued by you, but it shall pass I fear. Donnie/Sinbad the Sailor Man

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author avatar Synthaea
12th Aug 2010 (#)

Hmm. There is both truth and untruth in the picture you have formed. It makes me happy that me and this stream of consciousness intriugue. ;)

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author avatar Synthaea
12th Aug 2010 (#)

I mean. intrigue* :O

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