Not there

sunbeam24 By sunbeam24, 8th Feb 2015 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/1ripd8ig/
Posted in Wikinut>Writing>Death>Grief

I lost an old friend this week and sought comfort once again in the ink of a pen and a blank piece of paper, I wish I could have written more into her life's story. I wish I had been a better friend.

'Not there'

I do not understand how empty space
Can cut me the way it has-
Unforgiving, jagged edges of unfinished memories
Posting themselves over and over in my mind
I would look for you longer but grief has made me blind
I would laugh, dance and sing for you again my friend
Have another drink with you and avoid the end
I would soak in the luxury of what we meant to share
But they tell me now- you are 'not there'

Even the laughter is shrill in my ears
The shadow of death has stained all our years
I beg for the chance to show you I care
But they tell me now- you are 'not there'

And no one will publish-The unfinished book,
The chapters half written, the plot yet unformed
A mis-carried life in the womb of Earth's dust
I want to scream how you mattered - because someone must

I did not see it coming - I could not prepare
If I could just hold you, but you are not there.

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Broken, Death, Grief, Loss Of A Loved One, Mourning

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author avatar sunbeam24
Writing has always kept me sane, I do not go anywhere without a pen and paper close by. Thoughts continually seem to arrange themselves into patterns which form spoken pictures reflecting my heart.

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author avatar Sivaramakrishnan A
8th Feb 2015 (#)

It matters a lot when we behave like human beings all the time - increasingly we do not giving lame excuses. Touching poem - siva

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author avatar sunbeam24
8th Feb 2015 (#)

Thank you Siva, your comment meant alot- much appreciated.

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