Purging My Soul of Toxicity

C.T. Aretz By C.T. Aretz, 14th Jun 2012 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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Life isn't easy but it's even harder when life's challenges bring me down. Poetry is a great avenue for me to purge out, or fight off all toxic feelings, behaviors, or thoughts that might be holding me back. And I believe that others can relate to the same feelings as me and share their experience. It feels good to know I'm not alone; this is why I share. For my own mental health.

Anger Bleeds

Mindless is a temper that isn't tame
I construct a mental tourniquet for the rage
anger bleeds out of me --

life is pain

looking back, trying to figure out what causes me the most strain
if I don't watch it I could lose it all --


I don't want to die a desolate lonely death
I need to close the vein
my brain and heart will then become one
the brain is the father
the heart is the son
the vein is what ties them together
my body is temporary but serene is forever...

I leave the past where it belongs
I ask my higher power to forgive me for my wrongs
putting the bat away to love myself again
looking in the mirror and seeing a warrior

who's Huck Finn without Tom Sawyer?

a win for me
in this court I'm my own Lawyer
defending myself from insecurity and self-judgement
keeping an open mind to the goodness within me
being impartial to the challenges in my journey
taking all challenges in stride
all toxicity


Will be shown the door
there's not enough space for, IT, and me
today I choose to tread water instead of drowning in this rough sea



Anger, Bleeding, Poem, Rage, Serenity, Tame, Tourniquet, Win

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author avatar C.T. Aretz
I lived In Chicago for ten years (moved back to Boston recently), where I started writing... 35 was when I found my new love. Writing is my existence--my everything-a tool for success & happiness.

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author avatar Shaunak
14th Jun 2012 (#)

Nice words, i love ur style

"my body is temporary but serene is forever.." Luv it

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author avatar C.T. Aretz
14th Jun 2012 (#)

Thank you very much Shaunak, I am glad you came to visit and comment on my poem. I try to write to relate to others. I find that people are not that much different than me in their internal struggles, even though, their experience leading to those struggles are.

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