"Take Me Soon"

Angeles Mizilla By Angeles Mizilla, 26th May 2013 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/21ksg2wn/
Posted in Wikinut>Writing>Poetry

Broken spirited poetic style ramblings.
Note that this was written 8 years ago, during a deep depression.
I am still alive and well....

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My heart beats with an audity I've not heard since centuries past.

I scare myself for the thoughts In my own mind.

Fear myself and the intrigue to listen

Fear myself
for the face in the mirror

The low sense of will

Strong need for peace
and the desire

Oh Lord,
I fear the desire

The yearning for the scent of blood
The sticky, warm
to leave me eternally cold
forever numb

To never have to feel
Never have to hurt.

I fear my desire to die inside

I've died a hundred times a day
for most of my years

though I pray for a new kind of death

a death of finality

the eternal rest

all I can ask;
Lord, God
take me soon.

Amen.

Tags

Broken, Lost, Pain, Soulful, Suicidal Thoughts

Meet the author

author avatar Angeles Mizilla
I am a single 34 year old woman. I work as a Case Aide with a Children Services agency in Ohio. I love photography, animals, reading, music, food and family. I primarily write from life experience.

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