The Journey of Recovery

cheerbear11 By cheerbear11, 29th Jun 2010 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/1gr4gie9/
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This writing is about the process I went through when recovering from my Mental Illness. It also describes the process we all go through when recovering from an illness.

Everything I had to go through in order to recover

The journey of recovery from any illness, especially a serious one is a process not a product. In creating this process we have been dealing with feelings. Feelings and emotions of pain and suffering that are entwined with our journey of recovery. Experiences that have brought us much pain yet taught us to value the process even more intimately.
Exploring the depths of the dark days has meant more than just accepting them as part of the past. It has meant owning these experiences, recognizing how they have affected our person-hood and acknowledging that dark times will continue to be part of the journey. Dark days are the reality and the opportunity, a time to acknowledge the pain and loss, yet grow from within.

I did not ask to be a comsumer and yet I am. For me being a comsumer means all too often giving up a degree of control in my life to follow the advice of the professionals that may allow me to exist, but that is not recovery. This illness has so much impact on my life that I cannot allow it to define who I am.
I have had to learn how to trust myself again. That trust does not come easily. It is so easy for my doubts and fears to cloud the clarity of my thinking. It is so easy to allow the chaos to overwhelm and invade every part of my existence.

The pain of this journey may begin with just the smallest step. yet, allowing just one person to touch my inner self may be the most painful part.

Recovery becomes a process. One of breaking through the frozen ground only to die and then be born again. The process takes every bit of strength that is in me. Yet, recovery is my balance, it allows me to again have a voice in defining for myself who I am and who I choose to become.

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Consumer, Experience, Health, Illness, Illnesses, Journey, Recover, Recovery

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author avatar cheerbear11
My favorite TV shows are Little House on the Prairie and The Waltons. I will write alot of poetry for this site. I will also write alot of articles about Mental Health Disorders

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