Tired of Tears

vikki By vikki, 8th Apr 2015 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
Posted in Wikinut>Writing>Poetry

I have cried my last tear, I have no fear. We all experience death, some sooner rather than later.

Tired of Tears

Crying is for the weak, yet they fall so frequently, rolling down my cheeks, not a care in the world, each telling a story of their own.
Each night, the same situation, I break down uncontrollably, my mind races, my heart paces as I begrudgingly prepare for the unknown.

My pillow soaked with depression, my eyes red raw and feeling sore, trying in vain to snap out of this pathetic state.
Why does my heart go on beating; I'm no longer alive, I want to be free, how long must I wait, I'm never going to rejuvinate.

My stomach churning, the feeling of dread engulfing me, eating me alive. My appetite for life has evaporated, my hunger for death reinstated; I have nowhere left to turn.
Goodbyes are always excruciating. Some call it selfish, but is it not selfish to expect me to stay in this tortorous life of mine? A peaceful death is all I yearn.

The vicious cycle repeats itself, only this time, its the final nail, I no longer want to give, I have lost my will to live.
My purpose was always questionable, no longer debatable, I'm done. GAME OVER.
Poisonous as they come, my dark soul seeping out, now it's my loved ones turn to forgive.

Ebbing away daily, the time was always looming, I have been pushed one step too far, I can't cope anymore, life is out to get me.
Death is calling, drowning in my own tears, I'm being dragged into murky waters, I'm not resisting, I'm happily volunteering. The only option I foresee.

To live or to die; to fall or to fly.

My last tear fallen, my last breath taken, I will never awaken.

Death was always my destiny.

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Feelings, No Hope, Poems, Poetry, Suicide

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