What is Love?

RafahPerlado By RafahPerlado, 21st Sep 2014 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/3eu7x1m4/
Posted in Wikinut>Writing>Diaries

This is one of my emotional writing towards LOVE. How everything I've dreamed of had been a total nightmare. What I've thought about LOVE became the total opposite of it. Why I became who I am today.
We have a lot of different views when it comes to LOVE and this is what mine is. I am not a man hater or whatever you call it. I just had enough, maybe even more than enough of this what we call LOVE.

What is Love?

Before, for me love is the greatest feeling out of all feelings. You'll feel like you are in heaven, even though you are still standing on the earths' surface. That everything you'll see were hearts and roses. No dull moments, no crying and most importantly, no heartaches. That is what fairy tales taught me about love. That it always starts with "Once upon a time..." and ends with "happily ever after".

But I was wrong, so so so wrong. It does not happen in real life, because in real life, love is over-rated, unrealistic and a bluff. It was far beyond "Once upon a time..." and doesn't always end with "happily ever after",

Because in real life, you are not fighting a wicked witch or a step-mother. You are fighting the feeling of love itself. You will not always feel heaven on earth. Sometimes you will feel lonely, cry every night because you fought with your supposed Prince Charming. You will see life as black and white, and you will feel the most inevitable pain.

You may not see a blood flowing down your skin, but it always leaves a scar. A scar that no ointment can ever heal or lighten up. It will be a deep scar, that you'll feel, not see, all throughout your entire living life.

Here enters the saying "love hurts" which is true, whoever first said that line must have felt the inevitable pain that love provides. I may not be a love expert or you may say that I am too young to really know the meaning of love, but I tell you, at this age of twenty three, I've already been in and out of relationships but still felt nothing. No heaven on earth, no hearts and roses, most importantly, no happily ever after.

What I always felt was pain, sadness and i do always cry on my sleep. Always floats in the air without any direction. Felt empty inside. If you'll look deeply into my eyes you'll see the saddest person alive. I may smile, laugh or even be jolly at times but deep inside, I am crying, lost and all alone.

I'd be hypocrite to tell you that I never felt love before, because I did, once twice, but it never lasted. It always ended but not with the "happily ever after".

For that main reason, I became who I am today. Stronger than ever, had a heart of stone that even people plea for love from me, i can not grant. My heart is still broken, oh no, my heart is shattered into million bits of pieces. And I doubt it if there would be a person who is capable of bringing the pieces all back together. It's like I've been cursed that not even a kiss cannot fight the power within that curse.

So now, for me. Love is just a word. Nothing more and nothing less.

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Diary, Fairy Tales, Feelings, Hatred, Heart Broken, I Hate You, I Love You, In Love, Love, Romance, Sad, True Story

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author avatar RafahPerlado
I am a young entrepreneur and is a degree holder on Hotel and Restaurant Management. Basically my topic would focus on Cooking and Baking. And also with some Arts and Crafts.

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author avatar pramalkumarsamanta
21st Sep 2014 (#)

Love should not be taken as a thing. Rather it is a strong feeling within the heart which should be caressed and not to be broken under no circumstances.

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