When The Light Fades

Melissa D. By Melissa D., 2nd May 2013 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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A poem of my daily struggle with depression and that there is always hope for each and every one of us.

When The Light Fades

When the black clouds descend over my head
I wonder if this time its for good.
When darkness falls, I feel all is lost.
I know I must wait it out but it's no walk in the woods.
Medicine doesn't help and talking barely works.

Let me lay here in my misery,
my sadness creeping up on me.
The tears threaten to fall like acid on my cheeks.
My eyes burn with holding back the pain
Can't show weakness, never again.

I stumble outta bed in the morning, fighting with myself.
Don't want to move, don't want to go out.
Don't want to breathe, don't want to do anything that takes effort.
Some say get over it, life goes on, don't pout.
Some don't understand this sickness in my head
I fight to stay away from the edge of all the dread.

Every day is a battle to keep things in balance.
Every night is a sleepless effort in futility to not dream.

Some days the world is all askance
and others crystal clear.
I prefer the good days over the bad, who wouldn't?
I want to wrench this sickness from my head,
but know I couldn't.

There is no cure, just myself. Me, my thoughts run rampant, out of control
The days are endless no end in sight.
Everything is taking its toll.
Each day I find strength I didn't know I had.
Who knew? Maybe its not so bad.

Tags

Hope, Mental, Mental Anguish, Mental Illness, Mental Wellness

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author avatar Melissa D.
Hello! My name is Melissa M. Dann and I reside and sell the written word in the beautiful state of Montana. Besides writing for Elance, I have published various poems at mypoetry.com. I recently start

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author avatar Fairy S Jacob
3rd May 2013 (#)

dear Melissa you are not alone in the struggling with black clouds..we all have such times as we are in the world of struggle...but keep remember the Cross in all such times,,,,as the battle belongs to the Lord!...great read and touchingly expressed yur tug of war. God loves you.

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