Where Is the Exit Door?

Ivyevelyn, R.S.A. By Ivyevelyn, R.S.A., 28th Aug 2012 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/39_9pds7/
Posted in Wikinut>Writing>Poetry

There comes a time in all our lives when we really must move on.
A relationship, our home, our work, they might be best to leave behind.
Always some sadness but when the time has come, we will realize
There is part of us that insists our time is up, new pastures we must find.

Happy Memories

When I first joined Wikinut, I was delighted and felt so welcome
My work was appreciated by many and I felt I had really found a home
My first page sought solace and support, I had just been diagnosed
With an illness severe enough, I longed to confide and not feel so alone.

The warm response gave me strength and the confidence to do well
I valued all those who held out their hands and propped me up that day
My spirits lifted, I walked on air, my mind opened up, I left despair
Treatments, MRIs, X-rays and blood tests, each a challenge I had to bear.

A Family

But I kept in touch with Wikinut and my mind slowly opened up to see
That there were those around me, showing love and always constant care.
I felt encompassed by the strength of those who accompanied me
Through long corridors, waiting rooms, MRIs and x-rays, like a family.

In recent months so many have left, I can only name a few, Denise, Andre,
Songbird, I cannot remember all their names but their presence was so dear
Now others have arrived and I cannot relate to them, their attitude is obtuse
I find their work interesting but for me they seem to have so very little use.

The Need to Leave

There is now an element on Wikinut which I would rather leave behind
But those I value I hope to find and share with them again.
David, Jack, Buzz, Delicia, siva, Shaunak, A K Rao, Benter, ICANANSWER,
Stevetheblogger, akram, Zach, my page ends there with many more to share.

On my list of followers is a face unpleasant and threatening to me
He has sworn to follow my every word and even into hell
I hate to end on such a note so I'll leave this page right here
Farewell, and if I have forgotten someone, you know I really care.

AUTHOR'S NOTE:
I woke up this morning and realized that I do not belong on Wikinut any longer. I feel hostility and the constant attacks and abuse have become too much. The lack of awareness by the moderators as to what is causing the problem makes me realize that the situation is hopeless. If I start out with a new resolve to avoid personal attacks, sure enough, out of the blue, on a page where I am not even addressing Jerry Walch, he will appear and begin his hateful insults. cnwriter is depraved and cruel. I am leaving for the last time and will not be back. All my old friends are gone; there are quite a few new writers and I hope they build up a community like the one that existed when I first came. I have 4364 nutpoints, I have 111 followers and I have not earned a dime. Fortunately, that is not important to me, but it is hardly encouraging for new writers to know this. Mark Gordon definitely said that some writers would be losing their accounts, and as the message was addressed to me, then how did he expect me to take this? Constantly, I feel blamed as if I am the problem, but how would any of you feel if a threat or abusive remark was made to you, without provocation, and then you are blamed for "stirring the pot". Immediately I make a comment contrary to the subject on Steve's page, he flips me off, then sure enough, here comes his cohort Jerry with his filthy insults. I do not have to put up with this and I feel relieved that I have made the decision. My early memories of Wikinut were happy and I felt welcome, but no longer. I hope you all do well. Regards, Ivyeveln.
By the way, Jerry Walch's comments have definitely been death threats and I certainly do not feel safe on Wikinut. I am now apprehensive about even signing on each day.
Mark Gordon's comments about "stirring the pot" cause me to comment that while he iis safe on his hobby farm, I am the one who is being threatened. He might do a little "pot stirring" himself if he was the one receiving death threats.

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Aloneness, Feeling Unwelcome, Hostility, Old Friends Have Left, Time To Leave

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author avatar Ivyevelyn, R.S.A.
I attended the City Literary Institute in London and have a Royal Society of Arts Diploma in English Language.

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author avatar David Reinstein,LCSW
28th Aug 2012 (#)

Au revoir and best of luck with whatever you decide to do and wherever you choose to go. You will be missed. David

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author avatar Shaunak
28th Aug 2012 (#)

it really feels sad to read this post from you. I can still recall my early days when i joined here. Reading works of fellow nutters inspired me to write a poetry and u were the first one to appreciate that and ur constant encouragement made me a good writer.

Your Pages always are a treat to read and a constant inspiration. I know many writers are exiting here but i urge u to stay here and keep contributing because u can inspire someone else too and make them a better writer.

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author avatar Ivyevelyn, R.S.A.
29th Aug 2012 (#)

Shaunak. Thank you and I will keep in touch with you.
Ivyevelyn.

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author avatar Sivaramakrishnan A
28th Aug 2012 (#)

I am sure you are taking a short break only and will be back with renewed vigor soon. Everyone is going to miss you and any difference of opinion will only help us to know each other better. In the meantime, take care and my prayers are with you, dear Ivy - siva

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author avatar Ivyevelyn, R.S.A.
29th Aug 2012 (#)

Thank you, siva. I know you have read the abuse piled on me so I am sure you understand.

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author avatar jkalwaye
28th Aug 2012 (#)

Be cool and relax .Concentrate in your writing .Always be a warrior in life .Fight ,fight and fight ,that is life .jk

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author avatar Peter B. Giblett
28th Aug 2012 (#)

Ivyevelyn, it is very sad that you feel this way. It is sad to see the "face unpleasant and threatening" everywhere. Yet I cannot help but think, that if "he has sworn to follow my every word and even into hell" then he is all the worse for that. My fear is cyber-stalking!

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author avatar Ivyevelyn, R.S.A.
29th Aug 2012 (#)

Thank you, Peter. Do moderators have any concern when they see the attacks made on a writer?

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author avatar Peter B. Giblett
29th Aug 2012 (#)

I cannot speak for other moderators, but I have to say that I am very concerned and believe that there is no place for personal attacks here or at any site. I am always open to comments on any article that I write, and even support a person's right to say that my article is wrong - I would be happy for them to prove that.

But there should NEVER be a place for name calling or snide personal comments. I have never had such an attack on my articles, but a part of me says such comments should be deleted.

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author avatar Lady Aiyanna
28th Aug 2012 (#)

When you are a passionate writer, where you write doesn't matter, you just do it. I write anywhere an that is my passion, Facebook, emailing myself, texting myself etc. I have my secret venues where I pen things and all will see it in time. Its more the fact I need to de-clutter my life to dedicate it totally to the things I love before launching myself to the world. Think you should do the same as you do write well.... Take care, back up your work preferably leave no trace of your existence in that particular area to avoid being copied and the essence of your individuality ruined.

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author avatar Ivyevelyn, R.S.A.
29th Aug 2012 (#)

Thank you Lady Alyanna, I could never quite understand the problems you are having. Now I know!

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author avatar Buzz
28th Aug 2012 (#)

Cruel Wiki world. Come
with me on Expertscolumn.

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author avatar Ivyevelyn, R.S.A.
29th Aug 2012 (#)

O.K. See you there, Buzzy Boy.

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author avatar Buzz
28th Aug 2012 (#)

Say good bye without changing your mind,dear. Expertscolumn will welcome you.

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author avatar Ivyevelyn, R.S.A.
28th Aug 2012 (#)

Well, Buzzie Boy: Take me by the hand and introduce me to Experts' Column. Also, do not think I care if Wikinut cancels my account. I told Mark Gordon to cancel my account, not to threaten to cancel it. He declined. Surely it would be a mark of honor to be fired by Wikinut.

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author avatar Ivyevelyn, R.S.A.
29th Aug 2012 (#)

I won't change my mind.

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author avatar Buzz
28th Aug 2012 (#)

Han Van Megeerin is now a moderator on Expertscolumn, our friend.

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author avatar Buzz
28th Aug 2012 (#)

Wiki has a way of flushing out writers goodbye.

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author avatar Ivyevelyn, R.S.A.
29th Aug 2012 (#)

I have only just realized that everyone I knew, or almost everyone, has left.

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author avatar jkalwaye
28th Aug 2012 (#)

Buzz,say me HOW it flush out .jk

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author avatar jkalwaye
28th Aug 2012 (#)

Buzz,what is wrong and what is right .nothing is complete .this site may have some drawbacks .as a member of this community try to make it better ,the best and the ultimate .jk

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author avatar jkalwaye
28th Aug 2012 (#)

Buzz
praise thou if you vanish of moderators or faults of this site but do me the opposite if thou quit of some fellow's comments .I just arrive here of browsing the keywords ''poem on tears''.take your own decision .okay .jk

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author avatar Buzz
28th Aug 2012 (#)

My crazy computer agrees with me,:)

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author avatar Ivyevelyn, R.S.A.
30th Aug 2012 (#)

Buzzy Boy: Please contact me.
Love and Hugs, Ivyevelyn.

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author avatar Delicia Powers
31st Aug 2012 (#)

You will be greatly missed Ivy...take good care and keep in touch:0)!

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author avatar Ivyevelyn, R.S.A.
1st Sep 2012 (#)

Don't play games with me, Buzzy Boy. I don't care if you want me to leave or not. You tell me to leave and then say, "Don't leave". What is going on with you? I do what I want to do anyway, but I did take a brief glance at what you have been saying. Just forget about it.

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author avatar Buzz
31st Aug 2012 (#)

Ivy, change your mind and don't leave! I was just kidding. Rest your mind for a while and write again!

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author avatar Md Rezaul Karim
2nd Sep 2012 (#)

Why need an exit door-
When I find no exit door-
Confine and be there-
Making my own world-
Life and thinking-
A new world might be discovered if not invented!

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author avatar Ivyevelyn, R.S.A.
3rd Sep 2012 (#)

Thank you, Rezaul. If I come back it will be to see good-hearted people like you.

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author avatar Sivaramakrishnan A
10th Sep 2012 (#)

You are missed, dear Ivy. Trust you are well. Come back with batteries fully recharged - siva

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author avatar vpaulose
14th Sep 2012 (#)

Interesting. Thank you Ivy.

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author avatar Tranquilpen
16th Sep 2012 (#)

Fare thee well dear friend as I too hath taken my leave through a bevy of scathing tongues

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author avatar Teila
23rd Oct 2012 (#)

Glad to see you've come back.

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author avatar Stella Mitchell
10th Dec 2012 (#)

I have just arrived on this site and found this write , and I should like to follow you if you are back . God bless you
Stella

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